Wednesday, 23 May 2018
Not to worry though, that's just how things roll with me sometimes! lol
I'm like "huh?"
I went to the Namehog site this morning and the TSOhosts bods have bought out Namehog and they really haven't made a good first impression on me!
They've set all the domain names that I cancelled to auto-renew, I couldn't do anything without accepting their cookies and I couldn't put my debit card into my account for auto renewals.
They've lost a customer now.
I was with Namehog right from the start... getting on for 20 years and they were fantastic.
I contacted TSOhosts about the card not being accepted and apparently it's a known issue that they are working on and will be fixed "shortly".
Well they will "shortly" lose a customer and I'll give them a single star review and recommend everybody avoids them.
Steve's happy with FastHosts so I'm seriously considering changing to them instead 'cos you can pay monthly instead of annually which is more expensive but less of a shock when you get an invoice for £1000 every year for each domains and hostings!
I'm gonna give TSOhosts until the end of the week to sort out the known issue then potentially move to FastHosts.
I woke up at 8.30am.
I'm more awake, alert and ready to start the day after less than 7 hours sleep, yet when I sleep for 10-12 hours I'm totally wiped out, tired, can barely keep my eyes open and generally feeling bleh... how is that even possible??
Surely after more sleep you feel better and more awake, right?
So why am I not asleep until lunchtime? Why do I feel more awake with less sleep than I do with more?!
Tuesday, 22 May 2018
Then I'll aim to be finished all the free courses by September so that I can totally clear my memory and enrol for a module on childhood and child psychology module starting in October and goes until July but doesn't have an exam just 4 eTMAs so I can work my way through that just to see if my memory is good enough to start a level 1 OU course and take it from there.
For the first time in my life I genuinely think that I'll take things as they come and the module will give me a taste of a Level 1 course so that I will be able to tell if my memory is up to it yet. I'm not going to pressure myself, I just need to go at my own pace and hope that the OpenLearn courses were a genuine taste of the difficulty level of each course! If they are then I'll be fine on all the undergraduate courses that don't involve maths and it'll only be the post-graduate courses that I could start to struggle.
I'm not thinking that far ahead though, I just want to get all the free courses over and done with, then see if I get awarded ESA then I'll take it from there.
Some of the questions were a bit confusing because they asked for answers to things that hadn't been covered yet and a couple of links were dead links too, but for a free course I learnt a lot!
Just gotta wait for it to be marked now and I bet I'll fail! lol
Not bad going for 35 hours studying with brain damage though! 😁
Apparently he was a geek at University, which is fair enough, but the partial sentence that really struck a chord with me was to work out why you're studying, rather than what you're studying.
I'm studying because I want to learn new things and keep my brain active while I'm disabled. The brain damage has taken most of my memories and I honestly can't remember 5 minutes in the past, let alone anything further in the distance than that. Yep, totally serious.
Sooo, the reason that I'm studying is to prove to myself that I still can. That I'm still a passionate person and that just because I'm disabled doesn't mean I can't learn new things.
If I hadn't become disabled, if my brain hadn't been damaged, then I wouldn't have even thought about studying at University level because I would have told you I was too thick and I'd be kicked out in my first week there.
I've taken loads of OpenLearn courses which are University Level short courses and I did well with them. A few of them were even Post-Graduate courses and I coped OK with those too.
I'm not thick, I just need to have more confidence in myself... need to tell my bullies that they have bugger all control over me any more and that if I get awarded ESA in November then I *will* study with the Open University as long as I choose a course that doesn't have an exam because I know, in my heart of hearts, that right now I would fail because of my brain damage. I'm not saying that'll be my future, just for a few more years while I re-build my memory through studying is all.
You controlled me for too many years, Bullies, but not any more. From now on, the only person who tells me what I'm capable of achieving is me and only me.
Monday, 21 May 2018
Just submitted the first unit for marking so it's too late to do anything about it now!
I'm aiming to do one unit a day if I can but I can pretty much guarantee I'll have forgotten today's unit by the time I wake up and come down here tomorrow 'cos of the dratted brain damage! Tsk!
Sunday, 20 May 2018
Steve's reasoning? He put £20 towards the shopping "so we can afford more stuff". I've put £50 a week aside for the shopping yet my stuff comes to less than a fiver!!
Maybe it's just my maths, but going by Steve's reasoning he should be adding an extra £21 every week *on top of* the money he puts in for his extra's so that it's fairer!
I've got nothing against him adding things to the shopping, but why add brand name stuff when there is the same stuff for less on own brand things?!
Saturday, 19 May 2018
✰✰✰✰✰ out of 5
Just finished reading this book and it's an adorable but very quick read!
It takes you through the rapid change from fun-loving, innocent, twenty-something who is more interested in completing his Star Wars figure collection than saving money for the future all the way to a brand new dad with the overwhelming responsibility it brings.
The author takes the reader through everything he was feeling, right from the first phone call in the middle of the night telling him to get to the labour ward fast all the way to unpacking all the new things for his surprise new baby!
It's a quick must-read for anyone who thinks it will never happen to them... it can and does as this book proves. Set yourself up with a savings account just in case you need it and move any leftover money into it... better to be safe than sorry and all that!
Friday, 18 May 2018
Had the first slice yesterday and while it was stronger/darker chocolate than I usually like, it was good to finally have a slice of proper cake that didn't make me ill so I'm gonna have another slice for me lunch then a burger for tea... now that all bar one manuscript is edited, I'm gonna have me tea and an early night for the first time this week then start studying either tomorrow or on Monday, depending on when I get the materials sent to me... achieved so much in the last few days!
So proud of myself!
Thursday, 17 May 2018
Wednesday, 16 May 2018
Tuesday, 15 May 2018
Monday, 14 May 2018
It means I can pay off BC in full and still have £2,000 left over!! That means I'll be totally debt free and I can work on rebuilding my credit score as well as being able to have money to fall back on while I'm waiting to hear about ESA in November.
In theory, even if I don't get ESA I can cancel all my direct debits and use the money for groceries and stuff each week for 30 months.
I hope I do get ESA in November though, 'cos there's no way I can work so I will, in theory, be living on PIP until September 2019 then I'll be penniless, but at least I'll be out of debt!!
So, plans for this week are to do loads of editing of my manuscripts today and tomorrow then carry on studying! I honestly thought I'd finished all the courses and was feeling lost without things to do, but my to-do list is huge now! lol
Sunday, 13 May 2018
Saturday, 12 May 2018
Got 2 bottles of Iron, 1 of Calcium and none of the multi so I'll need to put in an order for the Calcium and multi soon, just to be sure I don't run out!
Friday, 11 May 2018
Thursday, 10 May 2018
Wednesday, 9 May 2018
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Tuesday, 8 May 2018
Just use this link or my name (Amanda George) at the checkout et voila! They even cater for vegetarians (which a lot of other places don't) and they are happy to answer any questions about any of the supplements they sell... I've been buying all my supplements off them for 15 years and wouldn't go anywhere else now!
They even do supplements for pets and offer a student discount too as well as frequent offers and sales... you really can't find a better place for supplements online!
Monday, 7 May 2018
I'm far from fast, but I can, for the first time in my life, work out what the answer to any of the 9 times tables without a calculator!
Steve asked me a couple of multiplication questions at random and while it took me a few seconds, I got them right without any kind of calculation device in sight!
He asked me what 8x8 was and I didn't have a clue, but I got the 9 times table questions right each time!
I'll never be a Countdown contestant, but I'm so proud of myself right now!
Sunday, 6 May 2018
They obviously don't test their courses before they release them to the world! Tsk!
Saturday, 5 May 2018
Got 7 wrong on the second attempt so failed that one too.
Scraped by with 2.5% above the pass mark on my third attempt and took module 8.
It answered 8 questions that the assessment had asked all three times. The only reason I scraped by on the third attempt was that I already knew the answers based on a previous course.
If the assessment had been at the end of the course I would have got 4 questions wrong but would still have passed first time on what was supposed to be an assessment of what you had studied throughout the course, so why are so many questions being asked about something you don't even study until after you've taken the assessment??
It would only take a few minutes to change the html for the assessment to be moved from the end of module 7 to the end of module 8 and it would be fairer on future students too!!
There was a pack of wipes and food with this months box. She's on a diet atm so I put the food onto Freegle but if nobody wants it today then it'll be binned tomorrow.
She's a spectacular pup though 'cos I've just wiped her down with one of the wipes and she's white again now!
She wasn't sure at first so I didn't force her but she was a brave little pup and eventually let me wipe most of her body apart from her legs and chest. I don't want to force her into something so new to her so I just did her body and face then binned the wipe.
Mitzi was an amazing girl though... just stood there and let me do it!
Just stood there and let me do it!
Friday, 4 May 2018
I'm gonna concentrate on the courses I'm passionate about now - childcare and mental health, nothing else.
Thursday, 3 May 2018
There's an assessment too that I'll have to take but I can't even remember what I learnt this morning, let alone after 36 hours!!
Wednesday, 2 May 2018
I know what to expect now though and I'm about to start on my second course which only takes about an hour so I'll be able to have an early night tonight, thankfully!
Tuesday, 1 May 2018
She did 2 wee's and a poo which Steve cleared up and put into our back yard ready for picking up and putting into the rubbish bag on Sunday evening ready for Monday's pick-up by the rubbish collectors!
She seems to be a bit sore or doddery in her legs so maybe she's starting to feel her age now and we shouldn't walk her as far?
Monday, 30 April 2018
I have, potentially, found a distance learning college that I would love to at least try, as long as the books are available on the computer instead of paper books like you buy in Smiths or Waterstones or whatever.
Wish me luck!
Fifteen quid for a year's supply of the granules ain't bad if it means we can wash and dry our clothes again!
Sunday, 29 April 2018
The council threatened to take us to court over some dog poo that wasn't Mitzi's, yet cats are allowed to poo where they like with no come-back on their owners! Hardly fair, is it??
Steve's emailing the Council about it again but I bet the cat's owners will get away with it for the second time!
Saturday, 28 April 2018
Friday, 27 April 2018
Thursday, 26 April 2018
I feel totally lost now though! What on earth am I going to do with my days now that I haven't got any studying to do?!
At a guess, I'd say I'll be spending my time doing survey after survey! lol
He said that his legs are too painful after getting them changed, so I reckon that if I take the pup out on a Wednesday and Saturday with the occasional Thursday, Steve should be able to take her out the rest of the time to help them both to loose weight and get the benefit of exercising too... Steve said that it was just the motivation that he was struggling with but after a couple of days his mood really picked up so hopefully if we split the pup's walkies, like we have so far this week, all 3 of us will feel the benefit!
I guess I'll just be able to keep up with all the surveys better! lol
Just got 2 more shorter courses to do and I'll have finished 'em all in about 6 weeks! Bearing in mind I was struggling with the Level 1 (beginner) courses at the start and I'm now coping OKish with a few post graduate courses, I'm feeling really proud of myself!
Wednesday, 25 April 2018
I can't walk the pup as far as Steve takes her so I just take her up and down to our neighbours either side 3 times when I take her out.
Mitzi wasn't interested in going for her walk first off, even when I called "walkies" to her, so I went to the living room door and showed her the lead and it was only then that she realised what was going to happen... she's a senior pup now who just seems to want to spend most of her day asleep, so maybe she's starting to feel stiff in her old age or something? She's OK when she's moving, it's just the getting started that she's finding difficult.
Tuesday, 24 April 2018
Doubt I'll study at post graduate level if all the courses are as dull as this one was though! 😕
Nowt like being thrown in at the deep end! lol
Yep, 1 Calcium and 2 Irons left so I don't need to put in another order just yet.
Monday, 23 April 2018
Sunday, 22 April 2018
Gotta wait for my statement to be downloadable then I'll add it to the page and put the table onto it's own intermediate page, just like I did with the beginner courses 9 days ago.
I'm so unbelievably proud of myself for what I've achieved in the last 8 days... never thought I'd be intelligent enough to even attempt one of the courses, but I've done 16 of 'em and while there were a few iffy bits in some of the courses, I still managed to do them all!
Saturday, 21 April 2018
I'm really getting into the studying thing now!! Just gotta save up for my first OU undergraduate course!
My confidence has really improved over the last 6 weeks... this time two months ago and I would never have believed that I'd even consider writing this, but my confidence is sky high now... as long as I avoid science and maths courses I'll be OK I reckon!
I discovered another course that I hadn't put on the list too, so instead of having two courses left to do now, I've got three so I'll have finished the Level 2 courses by this time tomorrow, ready to make a start on the Advanced (Level 3) courses on Monday!
Getting the lump sum for PIP definitely came at the right time!
Friday, 20 April 2018
It's been literally years since I last saw a bumble bee and I'd forgotten how big, beautiful and loud they were!
I'm glad they were recorded and the mum's gave their permission for the recordings to be used on the course and it helps to illustrate one of the points made just before, but it's so sad that the children aren't cared more about by their mum's!
Don't get me wrong, the OU/OpenLearn have done nothing wrong and the researchers didn't do anything wrong at all, it just makes me sad that any child feels like the children in those video's is all! 😔
When we got home, I took her harness off and fed her while Steve was talking to his boss on the phone.
As a bit of interest to her morning! lol
Thursday, 19 April 2018
My ESA will be taken off me in November now though! lol
That's saved me £25 a month that I'm going to move over to BC then I'll be able to pay another £200 a month extra too and still have £20 left over for myself!
I can so do this!!
Wednesday, 18 April 2018
I can so do this!!
Tuesday, 17 April 2018
Beginner (Level 1) courses: 57 in 29 days
Intermediate (Level 2) courses: 4 in 1 day so far
Got a book to read and review so I'm gonna have the day off studying for the first time in a month so that I can do it, then I'm getting me hair cut on Thursday, so I'll start studying again on Friday and spend all weekend on it too. Think I deserve a break for a few days!
I've found where the modules are again on the OU site too, so I'll add those to my study plan tomorrow too... you watch me forget where they are by this afternoon though! lol
Monday, 16 April 2018
It's an extract from a level 3 course!!
I took a couple of level 1 courses that were extracts from level 2 and they were OK but a level 3 course is the last year of undergraduate study!!
Sunday, 15 April 2018
Either way, I'm going to go back to looking at all the courses and 'save' all the intermediate ones I want to do ready for making a start on them tomorrow!
I could be wrong, but I think the 'beginner' courses I've done this month are tasters of Level 1 undergraduate courses, in which case, if they are, I can cope with Level 1 courses at the Open University as long as there isn't an exam and I'm genuinely interested in what I'm studying.
Saturday, 14 April 2018
Friday, 13 April 2018
I can so do this!
Thursday, 12 April 2018
Gonna unsave the other technology and maths courses I've currently got saved in my profile so that I'm not tempted to try them any more!
From first look, it seems to be a genuine email from Google... technical words used, perfect spelling and grammar etc, but it wasn't addressed to me personally so the alarm bells started ringing, it used an address I don't use for Google Analytics, so the alarm bells carried on ringing, then there was a link at the bottom of the email asking me to go to a page to update my settings, so I hovered over it and it wasn't a Google address so there's no way I'm clicking on it.
Even a week ago I would have done and I would have been victim to a phishing scam, but thanks to the course telling me what checks to make, I'm free and safe from a phishing scam! Yaaaaay!
Thank you OpenLearn!!
Wednesday, 11 April 2018
Feeling a little bit more human already so I just need to keep taking 'em now! lol
Tuesday, 10 April 2018
Steve registered with OpenLearn this afternoon and enrolled on a course that took his interest... it's an Advanced level course though which is the equivalent to the last year of an Undergraduate course!!
Monday, 9 April 2018
I'm really proud of myself for scoring so well considering I struggled with the week 4 quiz and I got a "very well done" for my score too which has made it all worthwhile!
I'm gonna crack open a bottle of J2O in celebration now!
Saturday, 7 April 2018
This is a good book, but other than the introduction, the author hadn't been talking to her younger self at all, she's talking to the reader of the book, so the title of the book is very misleading! The only hint that it's written to someone else is just two words at the start of each section ("Dear P,") then immediately goes back into talking directly to the reader! Seems pointless to say that it's written to the younger you when the author barely mentions her younger self!
It's worth having a read of, just don't expect to find out too much from the notes that don't actually make an appearance in the book!
Friday, 6 April 2018
Basically, 100% of the courses I've enrolled on today have been for level 2 (out of 3) courses even though they are on OpenLearn as being introductory courses! Assuming I get through this course reasonably OK, I'll know that I can handle level 2 as well as level 1 courses at University level... it really was just the exam that I didn't pass because of my brain damage when I tried it the first time, so I'll keep working on improving my memory knowing that, in theory, I can cope with a level 2 course at the OU!
I never thought I'd say that!!
In that time, it's changed twice.
The first time was to change it from a brand name to a generic one.
The second time was because the brand I'd been getting had changed their recipe and it now had lactose in it.
No other changes in 18 years.
So why are they suddenly finding it so difficult to get hold of it?
This is the second month the pharmacy have had problems and it's only because I've got some left over that I'm reasonably sane still!
When my GP phoned me about the recipe changing he said he'd get on to the pharmacy about a different generic brand that was lactose free.
12 pills arrived a few days later with an IOU from the pharmacy for another 16 pills.
I phoned the pharmacy and asked them to keep these in stock for me.
I was told it'd take up to 4 days for the first lot because it wasn't named and I didn't have a repeat naming it but it'd be with me within the normal 5 days after that.
No probs says I.
Logged on to the GP prescription thing and put in another repeat which was sorted and sent to the pharmacy 10 days ago.
I've been waiting ever since.
In theory I'll be getting 44 pills 'cos of the 16 that the pharmacy owe me and 28 for the repeat I put in.
That won't happen though! I can almost guarantee it!
I'm just glad that I've got most of my previous prescription left before they changed the recipe otherwise I'd have gone totally nuts again by now!
Thursday, 5 April 2018
Wednesday, 4 April 2018
Tuesday, 3 April 2018
Monday, 2 April 2018
Sunday, 1 April 2018
Steve sees his dad for 5 of those hours a week and his sister for a couple of hours a week as standard, then we spent 7 hours with his entire family today, so 5+2+7=14 so Steve's seen his family more in 2 weeks than I've seen my mum in almost 9 years!!
No, that's not a typo. Steve's seen his family more in a fortnight that I've seen my mum in getting on for 9 years.
So much for going to see her regularly eh?
Saturday, 31 March 2018
Friday, 30 March 2018
Thursday, 29 March 2018
After I've done all the OpenLearn courses I wanna study, I'm gonna look into modules instead of full courses, just while I'm re-training my brain to remember again!
Wednesday, 28 March 2018
☆☆ out of 5
I had high hopes for this book, given the title.
I thought it'd give me ideas of how to improve my life and inspire me to make my life better than it had ever been before.
It's full of lecturing and made me constantly feel that the author was talking down to me. Made me feel like she knew me personally and knew what was best for me so kept going on about how you can do this and you can do that, which sounds inspirational but after the first few times it gets to be really annoying.
There's all sorts of spelling and grammar mistakes, on top of hypenating random words that have never been hypenated outside this book.
There are small bits that are kinda OK, but the content of the book isn't anything like the title promises.
There's a title image at the top of every page that takes up at least a quarter of each page and the font is huge as well as being double line spaced so it's more like 75 pages than 209 if you take the image and double line spacing out!
There are way too many characters who make an appearance for a couple of pages then are never mentioned again.
I appreciate that the author put a lot of herself into the book, but it needs oneheckuva lot of proof-reading and editing as well as a lot less lecturing in the content of the book.
Save your money on this book. Sorry.
Tuesday, 27 March 2018
It's done and dusted now though, thankfully, and I know for sure that I can't handle University level maths so I'm not even going to try unless it's a necessary part of a different course... no more maths only courses though!
I very much doubt I've been awarded PIP 'cos I couldn't answer a lot of the questions and the doctor said that Korsakov is mainly Dementia instead of physical and I need to ask my GP about why my mobility problems aren't in my notes either.
Ho hum. If I don't get re-awarded the ESA in November then I know exactly how I'm going to take my life at the start of 2019. I'm not suicidal but if I don't get the ESA then I will have exactly £0.00 a month to live on, which isn't realistic, so it's better all round for me not to be here.
Monday, 26 March 2018
Sunday, 25 March 2018
I refuse to open the zip file with my info in it though, 'cos it's got malware in it!!
If it weren't for AVG's constant vigilence, I'd have opened it without a thought!
Thank you for protecting me, AVG!
There were little bits of new information, but most of it was word for word the same as one of the other courses!
Saturday, 24 March 2018
Just finished studying the child psychology course and it was totally fascinating!
I was dreading it being pages full of theories and I was imagining a child psychologist sitting in a room with a child and their parent/carer/adult sitting next to them just talking and talking but it's not like that at all! There are so many settings a child psychologist can work in that I never realised before!
It's reignited my love of childcare and it's something I want to study more of for definite!
I'll take the key skills courses off and find a different course to do instead.
The first page, the introduction of all things, had maths as well as science in it and a few of the activities involved maths as well - if there had been marked quizes like the previous 10, I would definitely have failed the course!
If you enjoy science and maths then definitely enrol on the course, but if they freak you out then take things really slowly and make lots of notes!
Just to see what it's like!
It's about nutrition, vitamins and minerals and it's only an introductory (level 1) course so I'm not expecting to get anywhere near passing it, it's just to see what biology course at university level are like is all!
You watch, I'll be doing a history or geography course next! ROFL
No I won't! lol
Friday, 23 March 2018
If my maths is right, he sees his family the same amount in just over 2 weeks as I've seen my mum in almost 8 years.
So much for seeing me mum regularly eh?
I took the first one at 7pm yesterday to see if it sent me to sleep as well as keeping the psychosis at bay.
I was still awake at 10pm and didn't wake up until 7am this morning so it keeps me asleep for 12 hours since I took it.
It's lactose free so I didn't get an allergic reaction which was awesome.
The pill was teeny tiny so was easy peasy to swallow even for me.
I feel more awake and energetic this morning and there isn't even a hint of a psychotic episode which is fabulous!
Just phoned the pharmacy and asked for them to order in yesterday's pills and they said that was no problem, but it would need to be named on the prescription, so I phoned my GP and explained what the pharmacy had said. She made a note of the name I was requesting and said she'd ask a doctor to update my records so hopefully it's sorted now!
The pharmacist said that it'd take 3 days to get it from the manufacturer after they'd got the prescription, then they'll deliver it as soon as they get it, so, in theory, my next lot will take slightly longer because it'll be the first named prescription, so I'll order it 2 weeks before I run out, but after that it'll be back to getting my prescription 5 working days after requesting it from my GP.
The pills are generic instead of brand name, so they can't complain about the cost any more, but hopefully, starting from my May prescription, I'll be having my pills within a week again!
We shall see!
Thursday, 22 March 2018
It seems to have been more like the Windows ME blue screens that happened several times a day though, 'cos I haven't lost anything other than the time it took to report the blue screen to Microsoft and log back in, thankfully!
Even if I *had* lost everything with this blue screen, I would only have lost the stuff that I've used and saved in the last 5 days 'cos I back everything up every Saturday as routine "just in case" paranoia is all. Things like this make me grateful for my paranoia... it's why I run a deep virus scan of my entire laptop every Friday too!
A few months later, because of my dairy allergy, I was told it'd be 7 working days for delivery because they had to order them in from the manufacturer because they were lactose free.
That was fine too, I just phoned through the order a few days sooner.
This time though, I was waiting for two weeks with no updates so Steve phoned them last week to find out what was going on. The pharmacy had "lost the script" and were waiting for a new one from my GP so that they could contact the manufacturer but I'd definitely have them on Tuesday.
It got to 4pm on Tuesday and they still hadn't been delivered so Steve phoned the pharmacy who said they were waiting for the prescription from my surgery but that they "had the pills waiting" for me and they would try and get them out on Wednesday if they could, or definitely Thursday.
They've just been delivered.
But only 10 days worth.
The pharmacy put an IOU form on the front saying that they owe me 16 days so I hope they arrive in the next 12 days.
I'll order my next lot when I've got 14 days left instead of the 5 I was promised when I signed up to get them delivered.
Not a happy bunny.
Wednesday, 21 March 2018
Not a happy bunny.
Tuesday, 20 March 2018
His sister was here for an hour yesterday.
He saw his dad for 2 hours today.
That's 6 hours in 3 days, so he's 10 hours short of seeing his family more in a week than I've seen my mum since 2010.
No, that's not a typo. Steve sees his family the same amount in 7 days as I've seen my mum in 7 years!!
Hardly fair, is it?
Monday, 19 March 2018
Saturday, 17 March 2018
Spent about 10 hours with her for the funeral, 3 hours for the betweeny visit and about 3 hours when we went over with Mitzi so a grand total of about 16ish hours in 2010 and nothing since. Steve's spent part of that with his brother today so there's about 13 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time in one week with his family as I have with my mum since 2010.
The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was Steve promising that we could go and see my mum regularly... I don't call 16 hours in getting on for 8 years regular visits, do you?
I've already paid them £875 which is over £250 more than I got from the claim (£616) so Steve's going to call them on Monday and say that I'll pay £50 a month for the next 7 months 'cos there's no way I can afford it all in one go.
I've had to reduce my payments to BC from £75 a month to £25 to be able to afford that £50 and if I get any more PPI awards the entire amount will go to Citizen as soon as it reaches my account.
I'm so fucking fed up of them. I've had 2 PPI payments and this is the second time they've said I haven't paid when I have - 100% of the time they've done it and I'm fed up to the back teeth of it!
If you think you've been mis-sold PPI then do it yourself instead of going through a PPI company! Especially not Citizen Financial Advisory!!
I've seen my mum for less than 24 hours since 2010 and Steve was with me each time.
I'm relegated upstairs to the bedroom when Andrew comes over and I'm stuck in the living room while Marie's here. The only time I come into contact with Steve' family is when I open the front door for Steve and his dad waves at me from the car and when we get our hair's cut is when I see his mum.
Hardly fair, is it?
Friday, 16 March 2018
I ordered me AP 9 days ago and I still haven't got it and I've had to take one every other day for the last week. I've got 2 left which means that I've got enough to last me until Monday evening then that's it.
If I don't have the prescription by Monday I'm gonna go nuts and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me going totally fruitloop again.
If I go fruitloop I'll become suicidal because of the paranoia.
If I get paranoid I just won't see any reason not to take my life and I've got enough supplements to succeed this time too.
I'm not suicidal and won't be until the middle of next week, but I'll not be responsible or sensible come Wednesday.
I'm safe right now, but come Tuesday I'll have been waiting for my prescription for 2 weeks instead of the 5 days I was promised.
Thursday, 15 March 2018
Wednesday, 14 March 2018
Steve saw a programme about fish being caught and offered to get us chips for tea, so we're waiting for them to be delivered then I'll eat 'em and be forced to have a late night and early morning.
I really don't like missing doses, but better that than taking the full 28 days, going fruitloop while I'm waiting for the manufacturer and pharmacy to get the pills to me then have to start the cycle again... yadda yadda yadda.
I'm gonna phone the pharmacy next week and give them a 3 week window instead of the 2 weeks they've been having for the last decade or so... they promised 5 working days and everything was fine and dandy for years and I wrongly got used to it, then things started going tits up and haven't got any better *sigh*
Tuesday, 13 March 2018
Monday, 12 March 2018
Sunday, 11 March 2018
My wooziness is coming out as sudden bouts of anger and I go from placid to full of rage then back to placid literally within seconds, so I just want to apologise in advance for any sudden bursts of anger for seemingly little or no reason.
For example, I've just had a bath and was fine until I went to get a towel, a couple of things in the pile started to slip off and my rage went from zero to 10 immediately and back to zero just as quickly. I yelled at the top of my lungs in anger as soon as the clothes started slipping down, the hubby called through to find out what was going on and by the time he'd finished his sentence, my anger had disappeared again.
The way that Steve described my wooziness was by saying I'm like a steam train at the hands of someone with no training... I plod along fine until the coal is thrown into the firebox in just the wrong place and the safety valve thingies start blowing off steam. Everything is about steam trains with Steve! lol
Apparently I'm like a cartoon character... walking along fine and dandy one minute and the next there's steam coming out of my ears! lol
Anyway, I just want to apologise in advance for any posts I make that seem rude or angry or like I'm having a go at you... that's really not my intention at all, I just can't control my anger for a while is all... it'll get better and I do still care, I just need you to be patient with me for a while is all.
Saturday, 10 March 2018
I asked Steve how much he had left after all his bills have been paid every month.
"Barely anything" says he.
"How much is that though?" I asked.
"About 20 quid" says he.
"That's 5 times the amount that I'm left with" says I.
Steve sighs and shakes his head in frustration.
"See why I don't want you to spend more than £50 a week on shopping? Even if you spend £51 a week, I'm left with precisly nothing.
He's left with the same amount in one month as I am in five yet he says he struggles to pay for things and have any money left for himself.
What about me then?? I wanna see how you cope with having £4 a month to survive on instead of your current £20!
See why I buy very little for myself with the weekly groceries? It's because you've already spent most of it on cake and crisps and drinks!
Monday's shopping is exactly £48. I've got 3 bottles of pop on it, costing a grand total of £2.10. The rest of it is Steve's stuff. I'm trying to save money and Steve goes and adds more cake "because we've got more money to play with this week"... erm, no we haven't!!
If you think we've got more money to spend on the shopping, how about moving £16 a month over for the shopping? Then and only then will we have "more money to play with" and it'll put us on a more even monthly budget too.
Doubt that'll happen though.
Steve can afford take aways and books and stuff every month that it takes literally months for me to be able to afford, assuming that none of the shopping has cost over £50 a week for the entire five months! The only way that would happen is if I got 3 bottles of pop a week for myself and literally nothing else.
That'll never happen though.
Three times to be exact.
Once at my dad's funeral, once when we got Mitzi and the last time was December so that we could exchange Christmas gifts.
I haven't seen her since.
Last week Steve saw his family four times and next week it'll be three.
In 8 years I've seen my mum less than Steve saw his family last week.
Hardly fair, is it?!
Friday, 9 March 2018
In less than 3 years I'll be totally debt free for the first time since I was 18! I can count down the months now for the first time in over 20 years!
The pup poo'd in the road right outside the house so Steve picked it up and carried on walking the pup with me following them on the way and them following me on the way back.
Thursday, 8 March 2018
Wednesday, 7 March 2018
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Tuesday, 6 March 2018
I've cancelled the contract I never wanted 5 times so far, so why is my credit score still showing a default?
Why are they still saying I owe money on a contract I cancelled within 24 hours?
I've just spoken to someone at O2 yet again and she said she's going to email the credit reference agency, equifax and the O2 accounts bods to say that because I cancelled within the cooling off period, the defaults are wrong and she's refunded the missed payment that caused the default.
This evening is the fifth time I've contacted them in less than a year and each of those 5 times I've been told that the contract is cancelled and I don't owe them anything.
Apparently it can take 60 days to show up, so I'm giving them until the first week of May to get it sorted, when it'll be a year of when I cancelled the contract and if it's still not sorted by then, I'll want to speak to a manager at O2... my credit rating was only poor before this default and because of O2 it's back to being very poor now, so I'm not a happy bunny.
They've got 60 days from today to sort it out then I'll take it as high as it needs to go and move my number over to 3 and strongly discourage anyone and everyone from using O2.
They were an amazing company until a year ago... I couldn't recommend them highly enough - not any more though!
Monday, 5 March 2018
The navigation is more organised now and I've given up on the slidey outy navigation for now... caused too many problems this morning, so I'll just stick with what I know works for my personal site.
Means that I can concentrate on other things now that the navigation is sorted on both sites!
He's looking at post-it notes too now!
If he can afford pens, post-it notes and take-aways in less than a week then he can afford to pay for the electricity I reckon!
Just gotta keep up the payments to CO and BC for those 3 years then I can work on improving my credit score!
Right now, after all my bills and the shopping have come out, I'm left with £4 a month. We spent £50 on this week's shopping and £45 of it is Steve's stuff... literally the only things of mine on the entire order are 7 bottles of pop, the rest is for Steve.
I'm paying for the electricity too at £50 a month that I'm moving over to Steve, yet he can afford take-aways and things we don't need... I survive on £4 a month so why can Steve afford more than that? He buys stuff from Amazon too... I haven't bought anything from Amazon since Christmas when I had to get gifts for both families and Steve didn't put a penny towards it.
Not this year though. As of next week, Steve can spend exactly half the weekly grocery budget on food for him (£25) and half the electricity payment too... that'll save me £125 a month that I can put aside for gifts for my mum, C, H and D.
I'm fed up of getting £460 a month and being left with £4 yet Steve gets more than that and he can still afford take-aways!
Hardly fair, is it!
Sunday, 4 March 2018
Wanna try and remember to take them every morning but the brain damage has really affected my memory unfortunately 😟
Saturday, 3 March 2018
I've taken me AP already, so just waiting for it to kick in then I'll head to bed, feeling really proud of myself.
Friday, 2 March 2018
Not any more though!
I just had to find, copy and paste a couple of dll's from one folder to 3 others, et voila! Sorted! I can now send emails straight from websites instead of going 'round the houses!
Thursday, 1 March 2018
In January and February, thousands of little voices took on Google and Apple and got them to remove an anonymous pro-bullying app from their stores.
In February we took on PG Tips about removing plastic from their teabags so that they could be used then composted. They've agreed to remove the plastic.
In 2 months, the consumers have spoken to 3 huge companies and made requests of them... and won!
I emailed my MP about privatising our NHS too and he backed himself into a corner... the email he sent me was talking about his personal life and what he'd achieved as a person as well as telling me how many emails he replies to a year without even mentioning the NHS and without any prompting from me. I just hope he takes his constituents concerns into Parliment and fights for every one of us... that's his job after all!
I said that to Steve, then added "wanna renew the delivery pass with Sainsburys or do you wanna go back to Tesco?"
His reply, and I quote, was "see how they do throughout March and decide later, but they're doing OK right now aren't they so we can stay with them if you like?"
Never thought Steve would agree to that... he's been a Tesco boy the entire time I've known him, so Sainsbury's must have impressed him over the last couple of months!
I've always been a Sainsbury's gal because I've had a Nectar card for decades, but I've got a Tesco loyalty card now too so I'm genuinely not bothered either way! I like that you pay in advance with Sainsbury's then you don't need to worry about it, but you pay monthly at Tesco but that's all!
Wednesday, 28 February 2018
Tuesday, 27 February 2018
Monday, 26 February 2018
Apparently Gloucester has been around since 97AD!! That means that just the city I live in is older than most of America! lol
Only Native Americans even start to approach the oldness of where I live and even then it's a close-run thing!
Sunday, 25 February 2018
I took the pup's lead off, folded it up and took it into the kitchen then fed her. Came back in here to get the mugs and took them out to Steve after I'd backed up my hard drive.
My laptop has been on non-stop for 3 days now, because I forgot to set the virus scan going on Friday!
Saturday, 24 February 2018
I don't know about you, but there's no way I can afford to fork out hundreds a month just to get my prescription! I don't want to have to decide between eating or taking a prescription that I need, but that's what could happen!
After all my bills, the electricity and groceries have come out, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month!! I don't know where they're expecting me to find an extra £750 a month just for a single prescription, then another £1000 to see my GP, £500 for a blood test and even more for smears and jabs and things like that!
Our NHS isn't perfect, but it's free at the point of service and there are millions of people who use it to help to keep them healthy every day.
In all seriousness, if the Accountable Care thingy goes through in April, I'll have to stop taking my prescription and I'd prolly jump under the nearest bus within a month 'cos I just couldn't cope!
For those that *could* cope and survive without their prescription, they may end up homeless just so that they could pay for the insurance. We've already got way too many homeless people on the street who can't afford to eat but Mr Hunt doesn't seem to care about that!
Come on, Mr Hunt... take a pay cut and put the money into the NHS! Same with all the MPs and especially our PM... take a 10% pay cut and use the money that suddenly appears to invest in our NHS.
You earn more in a week than I do in an entire year! Be human and think about the whole country instead of lining your pockets with money that could be better used elsewhere!
Friday, 23 February 2018
Thursday, 22 February 2018
Wednesday, 21 February 2018
Tuesday, 20 February 2018
Hold on, let's start again.
I've got £19 left in my account after all my bills have come out.
I've got £50 for Monday's shopping but I'll be paid on Monday, so the shopping will come out of Monday's pay day, so I've got £69 left, yeah?
I bought something on Amazon for £30 so add that to the £69 makes £99 spare in March, right?
Take off Melanie's SCBWI subscription of £60 leaves me with £39 yeah?
Take off the membership to the Dog's Trust at £25 leaves me with £14 in March, yeah?
July and August are going to be expensive months 'cos I've got £87 coming out in July for Patrick's insurance then £60 in August for *my* membership to SCBWI, but as long as I keep the money in the bank and don't spend it on things I don't need as well as using the money in B as a back-up if I need it, things will be OK I reckon.
It'll be a really tight few months, but as long as I'm a tight-wad with me money and we don't spend any more than £50 a week on shopping, it's just about do-able I reckon.