Tuesday, 20 March 2018

6 courses in 4 days now

Done another 3 OpenLearn courses today, so I'm now at a total of 6 courses in 4 days which is pretty good going I reckon!

Updates on Steve's contact

His brother was here for 3 hours on Sunday.
His sister was here for an hour yesterday.
He saw his dad for 2 hours today.

That's 6 hours in 3 days, so he's 10 hours short of seeing his family more in a week than I've seen my mum since 2010.

No, that's not a typo.  Steve sees his family the same amount in 7 days as I've seen my mum in 7 years!!

Hardly fair, is it?

Monday, 19 March 2018

That's the third course finished

Three courses done and dusted in 4 days.

Just gotta upload my badge to my navigation page then I can go to bed!

2 in 3 days

Just finished another OpenLearn course... my second completed course in three days!  Yaaaay!

Saturday, 17 March 2018

Andrew left at 5ish, so...

Andrew was here for about 3 hours which was how long we spent with my mum when we went over between my father's funeral and when we got Mitzi.

Spent about 10 hours with her for the funeral, 3 hours for the betweeny visit and about 3 hours when we went over with Mitzi so a grand total of about 16ish hours in 2010 and nothing since.  Steve's spent part of that with his brother today so there's about 13 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time in one week with his family as I have with my mum since 2010.

The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was Steve promising that we could go and see my mum regularly... I don't call 16 hours in getting on for 8 years regular visits, do you?

Andrew's just arrived, so...

2pm on day one and I've been up here for an hour already.  Steve's already done more for Andrew, in under 5 minutes, than he does for me in an entire day... he's more Andrew's carer than mine, obviously!

PPI and Citizen Financial

Just got another letter from Citizen Financial Advisory, threatening me with court action again.

I've already paid them £875 which is over £250 more than I got from the claim (£616) so Steve's going to call them on Monday and say that I'll pay £50 a month for the next 7 months 'cos there's no way I can afford it all in one go.

I've had to reduce my payments to BC from £75 a month to £25 to be able to afford that £50 and if I get any more PPI awards the entire amount will go to Citizen as soon as it reaches my account.

I'm so fucking fed up of them.  I've had 2 PPI payments and this is the second time they've said I haven't paid when I have - 100% of the time they've done it and I'm fed up to the back teeth of it!

If you think you've been mis-sold PPI then do it yourself instead of going through a PPI company!  Especially not Citizen Financial Advisory!!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again.  Nothing more than that lol.

The next 7 days

I was told, literally 10 minutes ago, that Andrew is coming over this afternoon, so I'll be recording for the next 7 days how often and for how long Steve sees his family.

I've seen my mum for less than 24 hours since 2010 and Steve was with me each time.

I'm relegated upstairs to the bedroom when Andrew comes over and I'm stuck in the living room while Marie's here.  The only time I come into contact with Steve' family is when I open the front door for Steve and his dad waves at me from the car and when we get our hair's cut is when I see his mum.

Hardly fair, is it?

Friday, 16 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

I ordered me AP 9 days ago and I still haven't got it and I've had to take one every other day for the last week.  I've got 2 left which means that I've got enough to last me until Monday evening then that's it.

If I don't have the prescription by Monday I'm gonna go nuts and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me going totally fruitloop again.

If I go fruitloop I'll become suicidal because of the paranoia.

If I get paranoid I just won't see any reason not to take my life and I've got enough supplements to succeed this time too.

I'm not suicidal and won't be until the middle of next week, but I'll not be responsible or sensible come Wednesday.

I'm safe right now, but come Tuesday I'll have been waiting for my prescription for 2 weeks instead of the 5 days I was promised.

Thursday, 15 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again and we're having jacket tatties for lunch today... yumsk!

Wednesday, 14 March 2018

Chips for tea and no pills tonight

The pharmacy have screwed up with my prescription again... they were supposed to have been delivered yesterday but they weren't, so yet again I'm doing 1 day taking them, 1 day without.  Tonight is a without night.

Steve saw a programme about fish being caught and offered to get us chips for tea, so we're waiting for them to be delivered then I'll eat 'em and be forced to have a late night and early morning.

I really don't like missing doses, but better that than taking the full 28 days, going fruitloop while I'm waiting for the manufacturer and pharmacy to get the pills to me then have to start the cycle again... yadda yadda yadda.

I'm gonna phone the pharmacy next week and give them a 3 week window instead of the 2 weeks they've been having for the last decade or so... they promised 5 working days and everything was fine and dandy for years and I wrongly got used to it, then things started going tits up and haven't got any better *sigh*

Tuesday, 13 March 2018

Supplements taken

Haven't taken my supplements for a few days and I've really been feeling it so I've just taken them and the multi is making me feel better already... hate that I keep forgetting though!  *sigh*

Monday, 12 March 2018

So tired tonight!

Taken me AP then Steve made me a mug of coffee so I'll be going to bed now and waking up late tomorrow!


Sunday, 11 March 2018

Just want to apologise in advance, in case...

I came off my AD last month because the new recipe had lactose in it, which I'm allergic to, so I suddenly came off the Citalopram and my GP warned me that because the withdrawl was so sudden, instead of being slowly weaned off it, I might feel woozy for a while as my body readjusts.

My wooziness is coming out as sudden bouts of anger and I go from placid to full of rage then back to placid literally within seconds, so I just want to apologise in advance for any sudden bursts of anger for seemingly little or no reason.

For example, I've just had a bath and was fine until I went to get a towel, a couple of things in the pile started to slip off and my rage went from zero to 10 immediately and back to zero just as quickly.  I yelled at the top of my lungs in anger as soon as the clothes started slipping down, the hubby called through to find out what was going on and by the time he'd finished his sentence, my anger had disappeared again.

The way that Steve described my wooziness was by saying I'm like a steam train at the hands of someone with no training... I plod along fine until the coal is thrown into the firebox in just the wrong place and the safety valve thingies start blowing off steam.  Everything is about steam trains with Steve!  lol 

Apparently I'm like a cartoon character... walking along fine and dandy one minute and the next there's steam coming out of my ears!  lol

Anyway, I just want to apologise in advance for any posts I make that seem rude or angry or like I'm having a go at you... that's really not my intention at all, I just can't control my anger for a while is all... it'll get better and I do still care, I just need you to be patient with me for a while is all.

Saturday, 10 March 2018

Stop apologising

Money differences between me and Steve

After all the bills have been paid and I've paid for the groceries at about £50 a week, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month.

I asked Steve how much he had left after all his bills have been paid every month.

"Barely anything" says he.

"How much is that though?" I asked.

"About 20 quid" says he.

"That's 5 times the amount that I'm left with" says I.

Steve sighs and shakes his head in frustration.

"See why I don't want you to spend more than £50 a week on shopping?  Even if you spend £51 a week, I'm left with precisly nothing.

He's left with the same amount in one month as I am in five yet he says he struggles to pay for things and have any money left for himself.

What about me then??  I wanna see how you cope with having £4 a month to survive on instead of your current £20!

See why I buy very little for myself with the weekly groceries?  It's because you've already spent most of it on cake and crisps and drinks!

Monday's shopping is exactly £48.  I've got 3 bottles of pop on it, costing a grand total of £2.10.  The rest of it is Steve's stuff.  I'm trying to save money and Steve goes and adds more cake "because we've got more money to play with this week"... erm, no we haven't!!

If you think we've got more money to spend on the shopping, how about moving £16 a month over for the shopping?  Then and only then will we have "more money to play with" and it'll put us on a more even monthly budget too.

Doubt that'll happen though.

Steve can afford take aways and books and stuff every month that it takes literally months for me to be able to afford, assuming that none of the shopping has cost over £50 a week for the entire five months!  The only way that would happen is if I got 3 bottles of pop a week for myself and literally nothing else.

That'll never happen though.


8 years, compared to 1 week

I last saw my mum in 2010.

Three times to be exact.

Once at my dad's funeral, once when we got Mitzi and the last time was December so that we could exchange Christmas gifts.

I haven't seen her since.

Last week Steve saw his family four times and next week it'll be three.

In 8 years I've seen my mum less than Steve saw his family last week.

Hardly fair, is it?!

Friday, 9 March 2018

31 months and counting

Just had a statements from one of my two credit cards and it'll be totally paid off in 31 months!

Totally awesomesauce!

In less than 3 years I'll be totally debt free for the first time since I was 18!  I can count down the months now for the first time in over 20 years!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements.  They went down fine this morning, thankfully!

Family walkies this morning!

Just got back from Mitzi's walk... I joined them to the end of the street today!

The pup poo'd in the road right outside the house so Steve picked it up and carried on walking the pup with me following them on the way and them following me on the way back.

Thursday, 8 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again.

That's all  😉

Wednesday, 7 March 2018

How's your maths?

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again!

If you're looking for an amazing online company to get supplements from, I definitely recommend Simply Supplements and you can get a discount off your first order if you use my name in the referrer thingy too... I've been buying off them for years and wouldn't go anywhere else now!

Tuesday, 6 March 2018

O2 yet again

O2 have been leading me a merry dance since the middle of May 2017.

I've cancelled the contract I never wanted 5 times so far, so why is my credit score still showing a default?

Why are they still saying I owe money on a contract I cancelled within 24 hours?

I've just spoken to someone at O2 yet again and she said she's going to email the credit reference agency, equifax and the O2 accounts bods to say that because I cancelled within the cooling off period, the defaults are wrong and she's refunded the missed payment that caused the default.

This evening is the fifth time I've contacted them in less than a year and each of those 5 times I've been told that the contract is cancelled and I don't owe them anything.

Apparently it can take 60 days to show up, so I'm giving them until the first week of May to get it sorted, when it'll be a year of when I cancelled the contract and if it's still not sorted by then, I'll want to speak to a manager at O2... my credit rating was only poor before this default and because of O2 it's back to being very poor now, so I'm not a happy bunny.

They've got 60 days from today to sort it out then I'll take it as high as it needs to go and move my number over to 3 and strongly discourage anyone and everyone from using O2.

They were an amazing company until a year ago... I couldn't recommend them highly enough - not any more though!

Supplements taken again

I'm sure you're all getting bored of these "supplements taken" posts, but I need to make them so that I know if I've taken them or not!

Monday, 5 March 2018

The navigation is more organised now, thankfully

Been working on my homepage for the last 8ish hours.

The navigation is more organised now and I've given up on the slidey outy navigation for now... caused too many problems this morning, so I'll just stick with what I know works for my personal site.

Means that I can concentrate on other things now that the navigation is sorted on both sites!

See what I mean?

We had a take-away last week which would've cost £15-£20 and he's just spent another £10 on two boxes of pens from Amazon, so that's £25-£30 in less than a week that Steve can afford but it's 7 months before I can afford that, yet he still says he hasn't got enough to live on.

He's looking at post-it notes too now!

If he can afford pens, post-it notes and take-aways in less than a week then he can afford to pay for the electricity I reckon!

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

The affect isn't as noticeable as yesterday yet, but it'll happen I'm sure... I just need to do it every day to get the most benefit!

3 years and counting

In 2.5 years I'll be free of another credit card debt and in 3 years I'll be totally debt free!  Yay!

Just gotta keep up the payments to CO and BC for those 3 years then I can work on improving my credit score!

Right now, after all my bills and the shopping have come out, I'm left with £4 a month.  We spent £50 on this week's shopping and £45 of it is Steve's stuff... literally the only things of mine on the entire order are 7 bottles of pop, the rest is for Steve.

I'm paying for the electricity too at £50 a month that I'm moving over to Steve, yet he can afford take-aways and things we don't need... I survive on £4 a month so why can Steve afford more than that?  He buys stuff from Amazon too... I haven't bought anything from Amazon since Christmas when I had to get gifts for both families and Steve didn't put a penny towards it.

Not this year though.  As of next week, Steve can spend exactly half the weekly grocery budget on food for him (£25) and half the electricity payment too... that'll save me £125 a month that I can put aside for gifts for my mum, C, H and D.

I'm fed up of getting £460 a month and being left with £4 yet Steve gets more than that and he can still afford take-aways!

Hardly fair, is it!

Sunday, 4 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and the multi is kicking in nice and quickly... haven't taken them for a few days 'cos I didn't remember but the effect is really quick when that happens!

Wanna try and remember to take them every morning but the brain damage has really affected my memory unfortunately  😟

Saturday, 3 March 2018

Creative afternoon today!

Went head-to-head with me Stories site this morning but eventually managed to get my blog embedded into the site, then I put this blog on my domain and did a bit of house-keeping with all the communities I'm no longer with and sorted out my webrings.

I've taken me AP already, so just waiting for it to kick in then I'll head to bed, feeling really proud of myself.

Friday, 2 March 2018

Well that were simple enough, even for me!

Since upgrading to Windows 10, I've been getting an error whenever I've tried to email someone from a link on a site... copying and pasteing the email address worked, but every time I tried to click the email link on a webpage, I got an error message.

Not any more though!

I just had to find, copy and paste a couple of dll's from one folder to 3 others, et voila!  Sorted!  I can now send emails straight from websites instead of going 'round the houses!

Yaay!  😀

Thursday, 1 March 2018

The little voices take on huge companies

In the 2 full months of 2018, Joe Public and the little voices have taken on 3 huge companies and won.

In January and February, thousands of little voices took on Google and Apple and got them to remove an anonymous pro-bullying app from their stores.

In February we took on PG Tips about removing plastic from their teabags so that they could be used then composted.  They've agreed to remove the plastic.

In 2 months, the consumers have spoken to 3 huge companies and made requests of them... and won!

I emailed my MP about privatising our NHS too and he backed himself into a corner... the email he sent me was talking about his personal life and what he'd achieved as a person as well as telling me how many emails he replies to a year without even mentioning the NHS and without any prompting from me.  I just hope he takes his constituents concerns into Parliment and fights for every one of us... that's his job after all!

Apparently Sainsbury's have our custom for another 3 months.

Steve's just said that he's happy to stay with Sainsbury's for our weekly groceries, so I'll let the delivery thing auto renew at the end of March for another 3 months... I like that you have the option of 3, 6 or 12 months delivery saver too, instead of being forced into a 6 month committment like you are with Tesco.

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and other than the Calcium being quite hard to crunch up, they all went down fine again.

Sainsbury's delivery pass

Had an email from Sainsbury's overnight to say that the delivery pass will run out on 29th March.

I said that to Steve, then added "wanna renew the delivery pass with Sainsburys or do you wanna go back to Tesco?"

His reply, and I quote, was "see how they do throughout March and decide later, but they're doing OK right now aren't they so we can stay with them if you like?"

Never thought Steve would agree to that... he's been a Tesco boy the entire time I've known him, so Sainsbury's must have impressed him over the last couple of months!

I've always been a Sainsbury's gal because I've had a Nectar card for decades, but I've got a Tesco loyalty card now too so I'm genuinely not bothered either way!  I like that you pay in advance with Sainsbury's then you don't need to worry about it, but you pay monthly at Tesco but that's all!

Wednesday, 28 February 2018

Just taken me supplements again

All went down nice and easily today, which was a relief!

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again... the calcium took a bit of effort to crunch up, but other than that they all went down fine and dandy.

Monday, 26 February 2018

This'll piss Americans off! lol

I live in Gloucester and Steve did a bit of research this morning after I asked him how many people live in Gloucester for a survey I was filling in.

Apparently Gloucester has been around since 97AD!!  That means that just the city I live in is older than most of America! lol

Only Native Americans even start to approach the oldness of where I live and even then it's a close-run thing!


There's a postbox that Steve walks the pup to every morning and he's just told me that it's a Victorian one 'cos it's got VR embossed on it so it's quite a decent age!

Supplements taken

All 3 of 'em went down without a single problem this morning!


👍     😁

Sunday, 25 February 2018

Supplements taken

Remembered to take them this morning!  lol

Steve's already achieved a lot this morning!

He's taken the pup out for her walk, cleared her poo up that she did on the walk, cleared up and binned her poo from the yard,  put all our rubbish into the bag ready for it to be emptied tomorrow, took the recycling out then made us both a mug of coffee!

I took the pup's lead off, folded it up and took it into the kitchen then fed her.  Came back in here to get the mugs and took them out to Steve after I'd backed up my hard drive.

My laptop has been on non-stop for 3 days now, because I forgot to set the virus scan going on Friday!

Saturday, 24 February 2018


Jeremy Hunt, MP, wants to slip something through Parliament in April that will sell off the NHS to the highest bidder and it'll become a private company that we have to pay for.

I don't know about you, but there's no way I can afford to fork out hundreds a month just to get my prescription!  I don't want to have to decide between eating or taking a prescription that I need, but that's what could happen!

After all my bills, the electricity and groceries have come out, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month!!  I don't know where they're expecting me to find an extra £750 a month just for a single prescription, then another £1000 to see my GP, £500 for a blood test and even more for smears and jabs and things like that!

Our NHS isn't perfect, but it's free at the point of service and there are millions of people who use it to help to keep them healthy every day.

In all seriousness, if the Accountable Care thingy goes through in April, I'll have to stop taking my prescription and I'd prolly jump under the nearest bus within a month 'cos I just couldn't cope!

For those that *could* cope and survive without their prescription, they may end up homeless just so that they could pay for the insurance.  We've already got way too many homeless people on the street who can't afford to eat but Mr Hunt doesn't seem to care about that!

Come on, Mr Hunt... take a pay cut and put the money into the NHS!  Same with all the MPs and especially our PM... take a 10% pay cut and use the money that suddenly appears to invest in our NHS.

You earn more in a week than I do in an entire year!  Be human and think about the whole country instead of lining your pockets with money that could be better used elsewhere!

Friday, 23 February 2018

Supplements taken

This time it was the multi I had difficulty swallowing instead of the iron!

Didn't gag, like I do with the iron, but it took two mouthfuls of squash to get it down!

Thursday, 22 February 2018

This morning

Steve took the pup out for her walk just after I came downstairs and left me a note which our clever little pup had signed.

I'm cream crackered now though, so I'm heading to bed now.

Nite nite!

Wednesday, 21 February 2018

Joint walkies this morning

I took the pup for the first part of her walk and Steve walked with us in case she poo'd then he took over the second part of her walk, she poo'd, Steve picked it up and we all came home!

Tuesday, 20 February 2018

Just checked me bank balance

After a quick bit of maffs, I'll have £19 left in me account as long as Monday's shopping doesn't come to any more than £50 I'll be able to afford the membership to the Dogs Trust on the 15th March and I'll be paid again on Monday as well, so as long as I don't spend anything I'll be able to afford Melanie's SCBWI fee of about £60...

Hold on, let's start again.

I've got £19 left in my account after all my bills have come out.

I've got £50 for Monday's shopping but I'll be paid on Monday, so the shopping will come out of Monday's pay day, so I've got £69 left, yeah?
I bought something on Amazon for £30 so add that to the £69 makes £99 spare in March, right?

Take off Melanie's SCBWI subscription of £60 leaves me with £39 yeah?

Take off the membership to the Dog's Trust at £25 leaves me with £14 in March, yeah?

July and August are going to be expensive months 'cos I've got £87 coming out in July for Patrick's insurance then £60 in August for *my* membership to SCBWI, but as long as I keep the money in the bank and don't spend it on things I don't need as well as using the money in B as a back-up if I need it, things will be OK I reckon.

It'll be a really tight few months, but as long as I'm a tight-wad with me money and we don't spend any more than £50 a week on shopping, it's just about do-able I reckon.

Had me hair cut yesterday

Was almost 3 months since we last had it done so it needed doing!

Monday, 19 February 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements for the first time in a few days and the iron didn't come back up so it was definitely that I was swallowing too much squash for my body to cope with.

I know now though, so smaller mouthfuls of squash to take me supplements from now on.

Sunday, 18 February 2018

My message to you M:

Hair cutting tomorrow

Had a shower and washed me hair at lunch time then had pasta bake for me lunch 'cos I'm getting me hair cut tomorrow!  Seems like forever since I last had it done!

Saturday, 17 February 2018

We've just had a small earthquake!

Apparently there was a small earthquake in the Channel or summat a couple of hours ago!

Just a bit of a rumble for a few seconds but it's not a normal kinda occurrance for us and apparently it was felt up in Scotland too!!

4.4 on the bigness scale!!

Added my 3 sites to Bing this morning too

Apparently Google and Bing are the most used search engines.

I added my sites to Google a couple of days ago but couldn't work out how to add it to Bing.

I had to use my Hotmail account that I'd totally forgotten even existed but that means I've also changed the password on my lock screen now!

You watch me forget tomorrow morning and get stressed out about what it is!  lol

Friday, 16 February 2018

Joint walkies today

Steve wanted to rest his legs for his appointment this morning so he offered to be on "poo patrol" so I walked the pup for 100% then Steve took her up to the end of the street, picked up her poo and brought her home, where I fed her and took me supplements.

Just remembered that I need to kick me virus scan off too, so as soon as it's updated I'll set it going and be sorted for the rest of the day!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements and it was because I was drinking too much squash at once 'cos the iron went down without a problem this morning!

Thursday, 15 February 2018

American's ain't gonna like this post!

There was another mass shooting in America yesterday.

I saw this on my Facebook wall this afternoon and I've just gotta rant about it:

Yes, I am going to be talking about gun ownership.  If you don't want to read my opinions about it, navigate away now 'cos I'm not gonna hold back this time.

Last chance.

OK, so Dunblane happened 20 years ago.  A gunman burst into a school and murdered 17 innocent people who weren't expecting it.

The UK was like America with gun control at the time, but that shooting was the one and only time that needed to happen to totally stop gun ownership for the general public.

In the 20 years since Dunblane there hasn't been a single school shooting.

In 2 days there has been more deaths from a school shooting in America than there has been in those 20 years since Dunblane.

The difference?

The UK put a gun law through, stopping the general public from owning a gun.

Yes, there was outrage and violence and disagreements for a while after that but not a single school shooting in 20 years.  No more innocent lives lost.

Today is 15th February 2018.

In the month and a half since the start of 2018 there have already been 18 school shootings in America.

That's 3 a fucking week.

There have been more school shootings in 6 weeks in America than there have been in more than 20 years over here in the UK.

Yes, I know that it's in the American constitution that everyone has a right to bear arms.

I also know that the UK used to have a similar right.

It took 17 innocent lives lost to change that here in the UK.

Yes, there were all kinds of riots and violence when the law denying our right to bear arms was changed.

Yes, there are still shootings and murders and other gun crimes.

No, the UK isn't perfect, but we've lost 17 lives to change the law and we've all learnt to deal with it and act like humans now.

 The difference is that the UK said enough is enough and did something about it.

America on the other hand?

Guns are still allowed over here in the UK but they are very tightly controlled and has saved so many lives since Dunblane.  America have lost more lives in 6 fucking weeks than the UK has lost in the last 20 years combined.

Let me put it simply.

Change the constitution.

 If you don't like it then you are part of the problem.

The UK went through it 20 years ago.  There were angry people, demonstrations, violence in the streets... but no more deaths.

Not a single school shooting in 20 years.

Certain professions are still allowed to have guns, but they have to go through all kinds of checks and the guns have to be locked away. 

Yes, there are still illegal guns on the street.
Yes, there are still gun crimes.
Yes, there are still shots fired.

We know we're not perfect and we've never claimed to be, but stopping Joe Public from owning a gun and opening fire whenever and wherever he likes is onehelluva lot better than in America!

Have a gun amnesty for a month where everyone who hands in their gun gets a free 3 month membership to a shooting range or whatever, then bring in much tighter controls when it comes to getting a new gun, then make it illegal for anyone other than specially trained police to carry a gun unless they have a permit.

Make it so that anyone can hand in a gun to any police station, at any time, with no questions asked and no kind of punishment.

Give the American public a reason to hand in their guns and introduce tighter controls. 

Be prepared for outrage amongst the masses and offer support to those who feel they need it, all free of charge and totally anonymously. 

Give the American people a reason to give up their guns and the support they need to give them the security they may feel they need.

Offer self-defence lessons instead of gun control lessons.

Introduce free counselling and therapy whenever anybody needs it as they get used to a life without having a gun in their pocket.

There will be a rough while after the new controls come in, but surely saving countless lives a year is worth it?  If you had to choose between saving children's lives or owning a gun, what would you choose?  I would choose the children every time.

Come on America, time to wake up and smell life without fear now.

Let's make 2018 the year of no more gunfire in America... no more school shootings and a nationwide gun amnesty.

It won't be easy, but there will be so many innocent lives saved.

Isn't that worth it?

What a surprising change!

I regularly take online surveys and the one I've just taken has been like a breath of fresh air!

It was about food.

Usually I'm screened out within the first few questions because I'm vegan... not this time though!

Not only did it go beyond giving vegetarianism an option to choose in the very first question, it also, for possibly the first time ever, gave veganism a choice too.

I chose the vegan option, expecting to be screened out.


It then asked if my veganism was a choice or medical need.

My mouth dropped open in shock!

On the following pages it asked about the choices available for vegans in shops, bars, cafe's and restaurant.

I still wasn't screened out!

Maybe someone genuinely cared about the lack of variety of available foods and drinks available to vegans?

Throughout the survey they referred to it as a need or a choice which was so refreshing 'cos most people (on and offline) automatically assume that my veganism is a choice as opposed to a need.

I just wish there had been an opportunity to leave feedback at the end of that survey... I would have willingly given it the full 5 stars and a glowing review!

Wednesday, 14 February 2018

Supplements taken

The mouthful of squash that I swallowed with the iron came up again, so I'm wondering if maybe I swallow too much squash with the iron so I'll try and remember not to drink so much tomorrow and we'll see what happens then!

400% again today

Apparently they went to the post box and back again which is 400%, but apparently it was painfully cold out there, so Steve was glad to be home.

Tuesday, 13 February 2018

Achieved oneheckuva lot today!

Not only did I walk the pup, take my supplements, doing the stuff on my sites, have lunch, doing all the surveys as well as reading and reviewing a book, I've just taken me AP and downed a drinking chocolate too!

That means that tomorrow I'll just have surveys to do and that's it for the whole day!

I'm gonna get bored out of me tree!  lol

Achieved so much already today!

I've already put my Stories 4 Children site, my navigation page and my homepage in Google analytics which was... erm... interesting!  It's more complicated than it needs to be, but it's sorted now.

After the analytics thing, I put the meta tag thingies into the pages and uploaded them.

Then I submitted them all to the Google search engine.

I've had me lunch too (2 mugs of soup), so I can spend the rest of the day reading and reviewing a book!

I can so do this!

Supplements taken

The iron took a couple of attempts, but other than that everything went down OK today.

The multi isn't kicking in yet though, bizarrely.  It usually does!

Only 250% today

Steve wanted the day off from walking the pup, to rest his legs ready for later so we only went on 250% today.

Gonna try and remember to take me supplements now... you watch me forget though!  lol

Monday, 12 February 2018

400% today

Steve took the pup on her walk this morning and they did about 400% today 'cos apparently there was ice on the puddles and it was so cold, as well as Steve getting tired really quickly today.

He wanted to have a day off walking her and whined like a baby when I said I'd do it, but by the time I'd got the pup's lead off the side, he went to put his trousers and "pretend shoes" on.

They went to the postbox and back which is further than I can go and it's more interesting than just walking up and down to our neighbours and back a few times... better than nothing though!

Just had the tribunal bloke on the phone again

Just heard from the tribunal service.

The judge has agreed to a phone hearing, thankfully, so same time and date as the letter they sent with the hearing details on it, someone will call 15 minutes before to go through identity checks and stuff then the hearing and it'll go from there.

I asked about using Skype but the tribunal bloke said it was "too expensive" to use right now, so it's all being done over the phone.

Fine by me!

Gotta go and print off the documents with the bullet points now, so we're all sorted and ready for the call.

Keep yer fingers and toes crossed for me!

Sunday, 11 February 2018

800% today!

Steve's just got back with the pup.  Apparently they did their longest walk yet!

Up until this morning the most that Mitzi had walked was 400% but apparently they did that in just one direction today!

The pup is wiped out and Steve's puffing and panting, but he's recovering quicker than he ever has in the entire time I've known him!  His belly has noticeably shrunk too... it used to flop out over his waistband but not any more!

There's a long long way to go for him still, but if he keeps at it he'll keep losing the weight and be a lot healthier which will be brilliant... he'll get there in the end, I'm sure!

I believe in you Steve!  Keep going!

Saturday, 10 February 2018


The virus scan has just finished and it quarantined 9 pieces of malware, most of which was in my recycle bin, so I deleted the malware then emptied my recycle bin.

Almost 1,500 files in it that took up 20.8GB of my hard drive but it's all been deleted now.

That'll hopefully make next week's virus scan a bit quicker too... 24 hours this week!!

I'll keep doing it though, just for my own peace of mind!  I'd rather leave my laptop on for 24 hours and be able to get rid of viruses and malware then back my machine up once a week than not do it and get a virus that totally wipes my hard drive and sends itself to all my friends!

Steve's taking the pup out on her wander this morning!

"It looks a bit wet out there today" says Steve when I ask him if he wants to join us on our wander.

I know what's coming next.

"So it'll just be me and her again then?" I ask.

"Lemme go for a wee and I'll look out the back" says Steve.

I went to get Mitzi's lead on her and Steve comes out of the bathroom saying "the ground is a bit wet, but it's not raining so I'll take her"

They've just got home and Steve says "it's bitterly cold out there and it's started to rain so we cut it short, but the pup was bloodhounding it all the way there, so I don't know if it was the smells of Friday night or a fox or something, but she had her nose to the ground the whole time!"

Bless her cute little paws!

Friday, 9 February 2018

Steve is ace! Steve is ace! Steve is ace!

He's just sent me his carer bullet points ready for whenever we get the call about the PIP!

Other than a couple of minor things it looks good to me!  Just gotta convince the judge that I need this much help now!  lol

Keep yer fingers and toes crossed for me!

That's twice...

Had a phone call from the tribunal for my PIP appeal while Steve was at his appointment.

The man said that if the judge agreed, we could do the hearing over the phone instead of in person which sounds good to me!

I asked Steve to write a list of bullet points he wanted to cover as my carer and he said he would so I sent him some examples of things he might want to say in his own time to talk to the tribunal bods about the care he provides for me.

No problem.

I just reminded him and I got the "stop nagging me and I'll do it" speech.  That's it now - no more reminders or anything about it... if it's not done by the time I head to bed I'll make it public on Facebook that my carer doesn't care and I'll repeat it every time it happens.  I'm fed up of him getting credit and support for things he doesn't do!

He's got time to watch a 3 hour film but can't find 10 minutes to write out the list and potentially stop me getting the PIP!

Supplements taken

Just my normal blog post about taking me supplements as the reminder that I need every day!

The multi is kicking in nice and quickly again... I love it!

400% again

Took the pup out for her walk just in time 'cos it started peeing down with rain a few minutes after we got home.

I was happy with 100%, same as always, but the pup kept walking and walking and walking!

Our next door neighbours came out of their house and got into their car.  Mitzi's little tail was wagging like mad and she wanted to go and say hello to them all and one of the kids started off by pointing out Mitzi was, undeniably, a doggy.  Mitzi's little tail was wagging but I think they must have been running late or something because the mum just bundled them all into the car and strapped them in.

Mitzi was a good girl and we stayed out of their way... maybe next time they can say hello to each other?

Thursday, 8 February 2018

So tired!

Haven't posted anything all day 'cos I've been looking for jobs for Steve.

Apparently he's applied for 2 today so we'll see what happens tomorrow!

Apparently we've been black-listed by a taxi company because of Steve's size... it's up to them if they want to lose £20 a week from him - we've found another place now that have to come out to assess if Patrick will fit in their wheelchair accessible buses so we've called HMCTS to rearrange the hearing 'cos there weren't any available on Thursday, so we've got to fill in the registration form, they will assess Patrick's size and hopefully agree to take us whenever we need to go anywhere!

Wednesday, 7 February 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

The calcium bits went everywhere in my mouth and I've still got crumbs floating around but other than that, everything was fine and dandy.

Tuesday, 6 February 2018

The wooziness has started then!

I wasn't awarded PIP when I updated my DLA claim to a different GP so I went through the mandatory reconsideration, the face-to-face assessment, the paper appeal and now I've got an oral appeal hearing on Wednesday.

Everything has been fine and dandy all day, except for the last hour or so.

I asked HMCTS if I needed to take my medical records with me and if the court was wheelchair accessible.

Someone wrote back saying that the court was wheelchair accessible and that I'd just need to take a copy of everything I'd sent for the appeal.

Thankfully I kept a copy of it all so tried to print it off.

The printer decided to go offline and not print anything so my blood pressure went through the roof and poor Steve and Mitzi bore the brunt of my anger.

I rebooted the laptop and tried to print it all off again.

The printer ran out of paper.

I reloaded the paper tray and my anger was starting to bubble over when the printer decided the paper tray wasn't in properly.

My anger hit boiling point.

When I eventually got everything printed off and tried to put it in the envelope, Steve said to count to 10.

I hit the roof at him.

Mitzi's little ears disappeared in sadness or fear or shock or something.

Steve asked if it was the wooziness from suddenly stopping the Citalopram that my GP warned me might happen.

Just as quickly as I got angry, I calmed down too!

Just hope it doesn't happen again while I'm at the court!

I just wanna kill meself and be done with it right now  😔

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements for the first time in a couple of days again and I can already feel the multivitamin kicking in - I'm talking less than a minute which is impressive for anything!


Just got back from walking the pup and me legs are weak and sore now because we did 400% of our walking distance this morning!!

I was happy to come home after our usual 100% but the pup kept on walking, so I was thinking she wanted to double the distance this morning but nope, she kept walking and walking and walking until she'd walked 400%!

There's no way I can do anything else for the rest of the day now though 'cos there's no way my legs will hold me up any more!

Steve came out with us even though he said yesterday that he wanted to rest his legs today so yesterday's promises lasted less than 24 hours, as predicted.  He's got control of the remote again and yours truly had to deal with the landline phone again last night and this morning, so technically it was only 12 hours, despite him saying in reply to my Facebook memory yesterday morning that all I had to do was ask.

I asked him about phoning to arrange the taxi yesterday afternoon and he huffed angrilly and blamed me but eventually emailed them.  By the time the shopping had been and gone, it was back to his normal "I'll do it when you stop nagging me about it!" again.

As predicted.

Steve's just too predictable, so every time I ask him to do something I'll record it on my blog along with his response and see how long it takes to get done.

He said I only had to ask 22 hours ago and I've just asked him to email me his CV so that I can look over it and give him some feedback about it.  He's got a medical appointment at lunchtime today so I'll give it until he comes back then I'll ask him again and I bet he won't!  I'm trying to help him FFS, so why doesn't he keep his promises to me that he made 22 hours ago?

Monday, 5 February 2018

3 years

Assuming I'm allowed to keep getting the ESA for the next 3 years, I'll be totally debt free in less than 3 years.  If I'm awarded PIP at the appeal next week I'll be able to use the back payment to pay the last 2 credit cards off even quicker.

I've cancelled all my non essential direct debits to give Steve an extra £50 for the electricity a month on top of the council tax and shopping.  I said that he had to apply for more than 1 job a week or I'd stop the direct debit.

He applied for one job this morning and then fell asleep.

He's still asleep now!

I that's on top of the £50 a week I pay for the shopping... about £7.50 of that is drinks for me and the rest of it is cake and food and drink for Steve.  Hardly fair, is it?

I left literally everything behind for Steve in 1998 on the condition that we go back and see my mum regularly.  We haven't been over since 2010 for my dad's funeral, we saw her once soon after we rehomed Mitzi but nothing since.

OTOH, Steve sees his sister every Monday, his dad twice a week his brother whenever there is sport on the telly that they want to see and his mum every 6 weeks when we have our hair cut.  He sees his family more in a week than I've seen my family since 2010!

A year ago today, I spent the whole day sorting out and tidying up the kitchen.  Less than 24 hours later and it was a mess again.  I posted the memory that came up for me to Facebook and Steve had a go at me about it so yet again I'm at fault again.

Well not any more.

As of this morning we're swapping places.  I'm doing what Steve does around the house and he can do what I do.  He won't even last for 24 hours but I don't care any more... I don't see why I should have to keep the house tidy when Steve spends 20 hours a day asleep and the other 4 hours eating.

I've just had it now.

Steve and I are going to swap places just for one week and Steve can get the blame for a change.  Bet he doesn't though!  Bet it'll be my fault again.  Everything always is.

I've got my appeal hearing next week and Steve said when I got the letter 2 weeks ago that he'd arrange for the taxi to pick me up in my wheelchair to take me there.  He's called 2 taxi's to see if they've got wheelchair accessible taxi's.  They haven't but they suggested the company Steve refuses to use because of his size.

So, yet again, it's left up to me.  He's supposed to be my carer FFS!  He said he'll get the wheelchair taxi for me and get another company to take him to the court instead.

I can just see how that's gonna look to the court... my carer doesn't care!

I'm seriously considering moving out and getting a wheelchair accessible house and carer for myself for a few months.  He's decided that if I get PIP he'll get Carers Allowance because he cares for me for over 30 hours a week when in reality he does bugger all to help me.  He spends 4 hours a day awake and watching the telly instead of doing anything that would entitle him to the title of carer!

I've had enough.

I'm gonna see what the outcome is with my PIP appeal then look for my own little place closer to my mum, apply for more benefits to help with the rent and employ a live-in carer to actually care for me, like it says in his/her job description!

I'm not gonna put up with Steve's crap any more.  He either becomes my carer and earns the money he's determined to get from the Benefits Agency or I bugger off on my own.

It always becomes my fault when something goes wrong, but not any more.  I've had as much as I can take now!

Sunday, 4 February 2018

Wanna save literally hundreds of pounds on jewellery right now?

 If you're looking for some jewellery, get yourself over to Amazon right now 'cos they're having onehelluva sale right now!

I've just bought meself a ring for £30 instead of the £199 that it usually is!  A saving of £169 which is 85%!!!

I dunno if it's all jewellery or just rings or whatever, but get thee over to Amazon for huge savings like I've just made!

You can thank me later!  lol

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements and they all went down easily this morning!

The multi is kicking in now and Steve's taking the pup out for her morning stroll so I'm gonna read the book I downloaded last night now!

Saturday, 3 February 2018

Backed up for another week now

Not going to take me supplements 'cos it's almost bed time!  Wondered why I was so tired today!  lol

No viruses, pup walked and fed

Just need to remember to take me supplements and back up my hard drive now!

Friday, 2 February 2018

Virus scan started, supplements taken

Almost forgot to say that I started my weekly virus scan and it's already 24% done and it's protected me from loads of malware according to the quarantine part so that alone is worth the money!  Just got rid of the 4 malware/virus dooberries that were in quarantine now, so don't need to worry about that any more.

Taken me supplements as well... the iron was a bit of a PITA to swallow this morning, but it's only once a day so that's it until tomorrow morning now!

Pup walked and fed

Took the pup out for her stroll this morning and we managed 150% of the walk today.

Thursday, 1 February 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again... remembered this morning!  lol

Wednesday, 31 January 2018

So cold!

Had a bath and I'm so cold now!  😦

Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and they are kicking in nice and quickly... just need to remember to take 'em every day is all!

Pup walked 250% this morning

Last time Steve went to see the nurse, she said to not walk the pup the morning he goes to see her, just to see what happens, so I walked the pup this morning and she did 250% of the walk.

I was wondering if she'd want to do 300% but she didn't want to so I didn't force her.

Monday, 29 January 2018

That's a relief then!

BC haven't taken a payment since September, so I've just phoned them and they said I defaulted for some reason.

Soooo, I've made my first payment of the year and set up a standing order for the money to come out on the 28th of every month starting in February.

Means that it's one less thing to worry about now and I know that the money is going out for sure now.

Also know my account number now too lol

Sunday, 28 January 2018

If your internet suddenly goes down and it doesn't usually...

It's because there's another Windows update!

Steve took the pup out for her walkies this morning

It wasn't wet out there this morning, so Steve took Mitzi out for her walk this morning.

He's feeding her too, I might be getting him trained!  lol

Apparently they went just past the postbox this morning and the pup poo'd so Steve was responsible by picking up after her then came home and was tempted to leave it in our neighbours bin like they leave dirty nappies in ours!

Saturday, 27 January 2018

48 hours

Steve took Mitzi out for her walkies yesterday, but not this morning "because it's a bit wet out there" to quote him.

So as soon as I've finished my cough supressing drink I'll take her out again.

Never lasts!

Friday, 26 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

Quick question about Vitamin C though:  is it OK to take more vit C than the RDA like with vit B or is it dangerous like with vit D please?

He's taken the pup out for her walk now

Apparently Mitzi was making him feel guilty so he took her out this morning anyway.

I suggested that he makes his nurse appointments as early in the day as possible then take the pup out after he gets back if his nurse is worried about his legs.

Can't remember now what he said, but if he does do it like that then he really doesn't need to worry about me nagging him any more and I can hopefully spend time recovering from my cold for a while too!

Thank you Steve!

Less than 12 hours

As predicted in last night's post, "it's looking a touch wet out there this morning so I'm gonna jip out of Mitzi's walk today.  I've fed her though!" says Steve.

So, as normal, either I go out, in the wet, with a cold and a hacking cough to walk the pup or she doesn't get walked.

"Besides" he continues, "the nurse wants me to try not walking Mitzi on the day I see her to see if it affects my legs being treated".

Strange that he's had problems with his legs for longer than we've had the pup but the nurse has, conveniently, only mentioned it on Monday.

"I'll definitely walk her tomorrow though" he says.

Yeah.  Right.  Of course.


Thursday, 25 January 2018

Mitzi's supposed to be on a diet, but...

Mitzi has been on a diet for 2-3 years now and she is *this close* to being her ideal weight.

She's just been outside for a wee and Steve gave her 2 treats as a reward.  He also gave her a couple of quarters of his slices of ham that he had for his tea.  He also lets her lick the crumbs off his plate whenever he eats anything.


"It's our little routine!" according to Steve.  "Besides, we went on a hike this morning so she'll walk it off in no time!"

That's not the point of a diet though!

She gets very occasional treats when she poo's in the back yard from me and she very occasionally licks pasta sauce or rice off my plate, but that's it.

Every time Steve eats (twice a day) she licks his plate.  Everytime she asks to go outside she gets a treat.  If she poo's in the yard she gets 2 treats as well as getting human biscuits off him.

He only takes her out for walks when it's dry out there and then expects to be knighted every time.  If it's raining or snowing or hailing or even looking like it's going to rain, it's down to me to take her or she won't be walked at all then he wonders why I catch so many colds and he doesn't!

He gets the credit if she loses weight or she walks a little bit further, yet it's all my fault that her poo isn't cleared up or that she's put on weight or that we haven't arranged this or that.

I've been asking Steve for weeks to help me to get the pup into the bath to make her white again instead of her current grey.  "Yeah, maybe later or tomorrow or something" says Steve.




Well I've had it now.  Starting tomorrow I'll do exactly what Steve does for a week with the pup so that he can get the blame for the first time since we've had her if something goes wrong!

Bet he'll turn it around and make it my fault for not looking after her properly though!

Review: Rowse honey

✰✰ out of 5

Definitely not worth the money! :-(
I've got a cold right now and I'd read online that honey was a good way to ease colds.
We already had some runny honey in the house so I tried it with that first and it was a miracle! Within minutes of taking my first taste of it I'd stopped coughing for the first time in 4 days!
Maybe there really was something to the natural cough easer after all?
I finished off the first bottle of honey yesterday and couldn't wait to try this Rowse honey... more expensive and bigger bottle so faster results, right?
I've been coughing all day and the Rowse honey drink hasn't stopped it at all!
Didn't do anything different to the previous mugs of hot honey I'd had all weekend but I couldn't taste the honey at all. Even double the amount of honey in the second mug was barely detectable!
I've used up a third of the bottle just in one day and I've given myself a headache because I've been coughing so much.
I've learnt my lesson though... gonna put Sainsbury's own brand squeezy honey on next weeks order.
Better value, better taste and it actually stopped me coughing all day after only 2 mugs, but I've had 4 or 5 mugs using the Rowse honey today and haven't stopped coughing at all!
I've used almost triple the amount of Rowse honey in 10 hours without any kind of ease.
If you've got money to burn and you like tasteless honey, then get this one... if not, avoid it! I was hoping for too much after reading the 5 star review!
I won't be buying it again, it's a total waste of money!

New PB for the pup's walkies this morning, apparently.

Apparently Steve and the pup walked even further today... another 50ish% more than their usual distance.

They usually walk to the postbox and back which is awesome in itself.

Last time they worked to the gateway entrance thing and back.

Today they walked to the crossing opposite the BBC radio station bit and back!

They are both doing so well... they'll be walking a mini marathon next! lol

Wednesday, 24 January 2018

If the sound on your computer has suddenly stopped working...

Had issues with not being able to hear anything on my likkle laptop all day and I thought it was maybe my headphones being broken or something.


There was a Windows update installing in the background and it was stopping the volume on me laptop working.

A reboot later and everything is back to normal again!

I was getting so stressed out and angry that I couldn't get the CD to play, so my in-house geek suggested a reboot which I did and it came up with a message saying it was on stage 6 of 6 of some updates, so I'm thinking it was something wrong with the audio of Windows this time.

Back to normal now though!


Pup walked, supplements taken

As of now, I've taken 120 pills 'cos I took the last of my Iron tablets just now and had to open my next Iron pills bottle ready to take again tomorrow, but all 3 of em are working their magic on me now!

Tuesday, 23 January 2018

Just had my GP on the phone as well

I ran out of AD's and the pharmacy couldn't get hold of any lactose free ones from the manufacturer because they'd stopped making them or something.

Steve went into a bit of a panic last night and decided to phone the pharmacy as soon as they opened this morning.  They told him to contact my GP who has just phoned back and apparently he's got no problem with me completely stopping it, I just need to be prepared "to feel a bit woozy for a couple of weeks" while my body gets used to not having a med in my system that it's had since 2003.

I'm glad I don't need to take it any more and as long as the wooziness isn't throwing up constantly, I can live with the side effects for as long as my body needs to re-adjust!

Means that I can keep going to bed at midnight and being awake at 6.30am now which is a huge relief after being asleep for 12 hours and exhausted for the other 12 hours!  Just need to keep taking the multi now along with extra B12 boosts as needed in winter.

Things will be rough for a while, I know that and I can prepare for it, but for the first time in 1.5 decades I just don't feel the need to be on AD's at all!

On a scale of one to ten, right now I'm at eleven!

Just had a letter from HMCTS about PIP

Apparently they've had a request for an urgent hearing.

They got the letter on 5th January, so why has it taken almost 3 weeks since then to contact me about it?!

Also, it'll be in Cardiff so how the flip am I supposed to get there as well?!

Definitely approve of the new timings for...

Took me prescription at 10.30pm last night, went to bed at just gone midnight and woke up at 6.30am.  That means I've had 6.5 hours sleep and I feel great (other than me cold) so I'm gonna keep doing that every evening now!

I'll take me supplements at lunchtimeish and head to bed at midnight, ready to come downstairs bright and early the next morning.


Monday, 22 January 2018

Definitely prefer at-home cures for nausea and coughing!

Since 2003 I've used ginger to stop nausea and found it worked so much better than prescription anti-emetics without the associated long-term usage of prescription anti-emetics.

I've had a bad cold since Friday and the only thing that has stopped me coughing has been runny honey in hot water.  Cheaper than lozenges and more instantly effective too!

Definitely going to keep stock of the honey this year as well as the ginger beer!

Just taken me supplements

Took my prescription at 5pm yesterday and was only asleep for 5 hours then I was up and about for the rest of the night.

So, I'm going to test out a theory tonight... I've just taken me supplements which will, in theory, keep me awake until late tonight, I'll take me prescription at about 11pm and see what time I wake up tomorrow... in theory it'll be 4am, then I'll just listen to the radio until 6am and come downstairs ready to start writing.

I hope!  lol

Means that I'll have a more respectable bedtime of 11pm rather than 8pm and I'll still be up and about bright and early ready to start the day at a more respectable time too!

Today is gonna be the start of my new routine if it works like I've explained up there  ^^!

So proud of you, Steve!

Steve's just got back from taking Mitzi for her walk and they went the other way at the end of the road this time!

Last time they headed left and down to the post box, this time they took a right and went up to the pub and back.

Apparently the pup saw her reflection in the glass door of the block of flats and she was confused by it or something, bless her tiny little heart!

Sunday, 21 January 2018

Pup walked, supplements taken

I went to bed at 4pm yesterday and woke up at 10am wondering why it was dark outside.

I was just so cream crackered yesterday that I slept for 20 hours!

Worked out first thing that it was 'cos I hadn't taken me supplements yesterday, so I took me supplements first thing and I already feel so much better!

Just got back from walking the pup and Steve's asked his dad to take me for a blood test tomorrow so that I don't get a wet bum trying to put the batteries into Patrick!  lol

It'll be so much easier to go for appointments and stuff in Summer as well as being able to go into Gloucester 'cos there is less chance of rain then!  lol

Wanna go into Cheltenham at some point this year, just to see if it's doable in a wheelchair on buses is all.  If I *can* get to Cheltenham on the bus that'll be so totally awesome 'cos it's been at least 1.5 decades since I was last there!

As long as it's still all in the centre of Cheltenham I'll be fine, I'm sure, I just want to say that I can go into both Gloucester and Cheltenham is all.  I know I can get a taxi in and stuff, but the prices are just so different between bus and taxi!

Saturday, 20 January 2018


I've been AVG's customer almost from the start.

1998 or 1999 I think it was.

They have helped me twice since last July and they have somehow finally uninstalled McAfee for me that's been on since this laptop was ordered 4 or 5 years ago.

They offer a free version and a paid for version.  I'm using the paid for version and I want to say a huuuuuge thank you to Tam and Mohammed for sorting out the problem I've been having with AVG saying it's not up to date.

I'm now fully protected though, and as soon as I've paid off my two credit cards, I'm going to invest in the error fixing dooberry too, then save up the £100 a month to get Steve a car so that we can finally go over and see my mum again! 

In theory, it's £125 after I paid off SB at the end of last year but that extra £25 can be put towards the shopping and we won't need to rely on Basics stuff!

2018 is an expensive year - £99 for AVG for 3 years protection and loads of Namehog stuff, but if I can make it through this year without going overdrawn then I'll be a happy bunny and my credit score will get out of the red again too!

Yes, £99 is expensive, but it covers you for 3 years for all sorts of viruses and trojans and malware and stuff!  Surely your online safety is worth £33 a year? 

It is for me!

Friday, 19 January 2018

Taken my last AD, because...

I've been taking an AD and AP since I came out of hospital at the start of 2003.

The pharmacy have known since then (as in 1.5 decades) that I'm allergic to dairy.

There have been 2 changes to my prescription since then, both to the AP part, first to the brand name about 5ish years ago and then to reduce the dose last April.  No problem with either of those.

For the last 2 months there has been a problem with the AD part... first off, last month, it took almost a week longer than normal to deliver it because of the supplier and this month they didn't deliver it at all because the manufacturer no longer makes the lactose free version that I've been having for well over a decade.

I've been considering stopping the AD just to see if I still need it, or if I was just low in vitamins, so now that I don't have any more of my AD left, I'll give it a try without and maybe ask about having a regular course of B12 jabs throughout the Winter months 'cos even the first jab in the last course did wonders for me, so I wanna give it a try for a while just to see what happens.

Means that I need to remember to take at least my multi every morning now though, cos I haven't got the back-up of the AD any more!

Supplements taken, virus scan started

The multi has woken me up and improved my mood, same as normal... almost forgot to take them this morning though!

Started the weekly deep scan of my likkle laptop too - totally forgot about that!

All set now though, so I can hopefully wake my muse up and start planning my novel again.

Thursday, 18 January 2018

Take a guess what this post is about lol

Taken me supplements again and the multi is already kicking in again - yay!  👍

Wednesday, 17 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just my normal quick post to remind myself that I've taken me supplements!

Tuesday, 16 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again and the multi should be kicking in any second!

Monday, 15 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements and I'll run out of the first bottle of Iron in 7 days time.

I've got the next bottle already lined up 'cos I buy a years supply at a time so I've got 6 months and 1 week left of my supplements now.

I love Simply Supplements and have done for 1.5 decades... I'll never go anywhere else now!  If you want 20% off your first order with them, just put my name (Amanda George) in the box at the checkout and it's all sorted!  If there's more than one of me, just lemme know in the comments bit on this blog and I'll give you my email address!

That's a relief!

Just had a letter from one of my remaining two credit cards asking me to call them to discuss my repayment plan.

I panicked when I read that but found the courage to call them.

Glad I did!  The lady I spoke to went through my monthly outgoings and was happy for me to keep paying what I've been paying for the last year and I've got less than £800 left to pay off the card now so that'll be totally cleared in 32 months so that'll leave me with just the one credit card to pay off which is my biggest balance, but when I've finished paying off CO I'll be able to increase BC up to £100 a month which'll clear it even quicker!

Just gotta stop spending on things we don't need any more - spending has been an addiction for me so I'll prolly always have to battle that demon, but I'm a lot better with that than I used to be, so I've just gotta keep on keeping on now!

I'll only have one more card left to pay off in a couple of years but as long as BC are still happy to have £75 a month instead of the minimum payment, that'll be sorted in a couple of years too!

I can so do this!!

The pup's morning walkies with Steve

The pup made a friend on her walk this morning... apparently someone came out of the flats as they were walking back.

Steve talked to this lady and she spotted Mitzi's lead and asked about it, so Steve explained. Then she spotted the pup's harness and they started talking about Mitzi's Dogs Trust story.

The lady asked how old the pup was and Steve said she's 6 when she's actually 8 and we've had her for 7 years.

The lady bent down to say hello to the pup and Mitzi left a couple of dirty paw marks on her jeans!

Apparently Steve stood there apologising and she was like "no problem at all!" 

It's amazing what can be achieved when you're friendly to your neighbours and you've got a little pup to introduce you!

Mitzi now knows 5 people in the street and 4 of them like her... the other one just isn't worth it... he's got a problem with me, not the pup! She knows both neighbours and one across the street as well as today's lady and they all like her almost as much as we love her!

Sunday, 14 January 2018

Just been for Mitzi's second walk of the day

I'm feeling so much better, even though it took a few minutes for Mitzi to jump off the back of the sofa.

We did an extra 200% just now, so all three of us deserve our sleep tonight!  The pup has walked her equivalent of a half marathon today which is so totally awesome!

All three of us are getting some much-needed exercise now which will help us to loose some more weight too.

I won't take her for any more than that every afternoon though, just need to get my Endorphin rush to pick up my mood every morning is all!

So unbelievably proud of you, Steve!

Steve's been helping me to walk the pup for the last 5 days.

Started off with me doing most of it and Steve taking her for the last part.

Not today though!

Today he walked the pup on his own to the post box, posted a letter and walked back with me still being in the house!

He did it twice as fast as I was thinking too... I thought to myself that he'd be at the end of the road, but he wasn't!  30 seconds later he was home!

I was sat on the sofa with my laptop booting up and in he walked!

Apparently he stopped once to catch his breath, but he did it totally alone for the first time in more than a decade!

He says his next target is the bus stop, but that's double the length he walked today so he needs to slow down a bit!  lol

He seems to be enjoying his morning walks with the pup though... once he had the motivation and he got through the barrier, he's waking up in a better mood and ready to do it as soon as I wake up and come downstairs now!

So proud of you for being able to do so much in less than a week, Steve!!

Saturday, 13 January 2018

7 days

If we'd said to each other a week ago that Steve would be having a bowl of chips and 2 sausage rolls for his lunch as well as willingly wanting to walk the pup every morning and being willing to take the pup to the post box on his own, neither of us would have believed it!

Now that he's got the motivation to take the pup out with me and he's ready to take the pup out before I've even come downstairs, hopefully he'll still be willing to do it for the rest of the year!  He's already aiming for the chippy, but I think he should take things a lot slower than that!  lol

He's just said about getting to the garage to get us a Subway roll each and it's an amazing thing to aim for, he just needs to take it a lot slower though... I just don't want him to try to get to the garage next weekend and get stuck and lose all the confidence he's starting to build up is all!

I want him to build up slowly and the first target should be getting to his GP and back first, then taking it from there... it's like he's expecting to run a marathon after only jogging for a mile first off is all.  He'll do it, just not as quickly as he's hoping for!

Taken me supplements

They all went down OKish... the Calcium gave me a bit of pain when I crunched it up (it's too big for me to swallow whole, so I crunch that one up) 'cos a little crumb got attached to the top of me tooth without realising it so when I crunched again, my two teeth came into contact with the crumb and it was a bit ouchie but no big deal.

Had another PPI thing through the post this morning

Apparently Santander and looking at my claim both for Debenhams and Dorothy Perkins.

I've just filled in the form and got it ready for tomorrow, so Steve's got a reason to go to the postbox tomorrow now!

He knows he can do it when it's just him 'cos that's what he did on Tuesday, but he's going to walk our pup tomorrow as well as posting the letter for me.

I'm gonna stay in the house and hopefully Steve'll remember to take his mobile with him just in case he needs it, to put both of our minds at rest.

He said that he stopped to catch his breath once on his way back on Tuesday so hopefully he'll be able to do it without any stops at all tomorrow!

So proud of you, Steve!

Sort of family walkies today

Other than taking the pup out of the door, holding onto her lead while Steve cleared up her poo and bringing her in, Steve did the whole lot today!

I asked him if he wanted to try the entire thing alone tomorrow and he nervously said yes!

I'm not pressuring him, but he's done so much more in the last 4 days than he has for more than a decade!

You're awesome, Steve!  Just take things slowly and you'll be walking into town again before you know it!  You already know you can walk to the post box alone, so the next step is the hospital and you'll be well away!

It doesn't matter how long it takes, just keep pushing yourself a tiny bit more each time and you'll be fine!  In less than a week you've gone from walking to the postbox occasionally to taking our pup for her entire morning walk!

I've just asked him about taking the pup to the postbox tomorrow and he agreed as long as it's not raining!

Keep at it Steve... you're doing so well!

Friday, 12 January 2018

Taken me supplements

Just taken me 3 supplements and, as usual, the multi is already starting to kick in again.

Just need to remember to take them each morning and I'll be sorted for the day!

325% and family walkies this morning

We took the pup out on family walkies again this morning and while we didn't walk quite as far as yesterday, Steve took her for half of it which he's never done before!

He's going to come for our morning walkies every morning that it isn't wet out there too apparently!

The last 3 days has obviously encouraged him to walk a little bit more and he seemed to have more energy and feel better mentally yesterday and Wednesday too which is awesome!

The 15 minute walk I do with the pup set me up for the day and the half hour walks with Steve set him up for the day too 'cos he's already working on his laptop instead of being asleep until lunchtime like he was last week!

WTG Steve and Mitzi!

Thursday, 11 January 2018

Family walkies again!!

Me and Mitzi took Steve on our usual daily walk.

I was happy with 100% but the pup carried on walking, so we did 200% and Steve suggested going to the end of the road again so we ended up doing about 400% this morning!!

My legs are killing me, Mitzi is wiped out and I bet Steve'll be asleep for at least a couple of hours today, but it's helping the three of us to lose weight!  Steve's clinically obese, I'm overweight and so is Mitzi, but if we keep going on family walks every morning then we'll lose weight together!

So proud of the three of us again this morning!

Wednesday, 10 January 2018

Family walkies again this morning

Steve posted another letter for me this morning so we went on a family walk to the end of the road.

To quote Steve, she made a dirty protest of him going for part of the walk without her 'cos she poo'd at the end of the road so Steve stayed at the end with the pup while I came home for a carrier bag, then he cleared it up and we brought it home with us.

I've just asked about going on family walkies every morning and he agreed!  We'll build up slowly but Steve's just agreed to do it so that'll help him to firm up and lose even more weight!

Once a week for a while then twice a week etc etc.

You can do it, Steve!

Tuesday, 9 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again and they all went down pretty easily again.

Monday, 8 January 2018

40 minutes early!

We've just had our groceries delivered.

40 minutes early!

Steve phoned his mum to let Marie know not to come and there were only maybe 5 carrier bags anyway so we sorted it out ourselves.

Not bad for £40... the doughnuts I ordered were a bit dry like Steve's fruit cake, but other than that there was nowt to complain about this week!

For a change!  lol

Just treated meself to...

As I'm slowly loosing weight, my rings are starting to slip and I'm worried about them coming off my fingers totally, so I've just ordered a pack of ring snuggies so that I can add them to my rings without risking my rings falling off.

They will be here by Wednesday so look out for a review of them when they arrive!

Supplements taken again

They all went down really easily this morning!

The council are back again and they are doing the pavements instead of the road today on the other side.  That means it'll be this side tomorrow then that's it done!

Sunday, 7 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again and the multi-vitamin is kicking in quickly again.

Steve got into a grumpy mood with me for asking me to fill up the bottles with squash so that I could take them... grumpy old man!  lol

That's the Namehog stuff paid until July

My New Look card PPI claim paid into my account overnight so I've spent £243 on my Namehog stuff until July so that I can save up my tenner a week into B to cover the rest of the renewals.

New Look was my lowest credit limit of £500ish so if they pay out £616 in PPI claims, what are my highest credit limit cards going to pay out?!  👍 😁

Saturday, 6 January 2018

Jacket tatties for lunch again

Had jacket tatties for our lunch after I'd written 3 chapters this morning.

The baked beans are repeating on me something chronic though!  lol

Friday, 5 January 2018

So proud of you Steve!

Steve's just got back from seeing his doc and he got weighed again.

He's 1.1kg off his own personal target weight and he's lost 3kg since 8th December which makes it 3 stones since he seriously started making an effort to lose weight in September.

All we've done is to almost totally cut out take-aways and have home-cooked food instead.

We used to have at least one take-away a day it's maybe once or twice a month now!

That includes the Christmas feast that we had with his family... usually he goes back for seconds and has a competition with his brother to see how much he can eat for their Christmas lunch.  Steve struggled to finish his first plate of food on Christmas Day and it was noticeably less food on that plate too!

When he next gets weighed at the start of February he'll be past his target and he'll have to set himself another target... it's definitely do-able though - keep going Steve and we'll get there in the end!

So proud of you!

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements too.  They all went down pretty easily today, thankfully.

Pup walked and fed

The "footway" is being re-done so the pup had loads of different sounds and smells to experience today.

She did really well though and walked for 100% of her walk this morning then waited at the door to come in, bless her little paws!

Thursday, 4 January 2018

Pup walked, supplements taken

After the huge family walk yesterday, my knees were killing me so we only did the 100% of the walk today.  Mitzi wanted to keep walking, but there was no way I would have been able to stay upright if we'd kept walking... sorry pup!

Just taken me supplements too and I'm already feeling more awake!  Gonna watch The Bill then carry on writing... I'm a sixth of the way through the manuscript already!

Wednesday, 3 January 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and the multi was a nightmare to swallow today... took 3 or 4 huge gulps of squash to get it down me throat and another big drink to wash it the rest of the way down too!

Thankfully the multi is kicking in nice and quickly again though, so I reckon I can let it off!  lol

Family walkies today!

I asked Steve to post a letter for me while he was out yesterday but he forgot so he promised to do it today instead.

Me and Mitzi walked up the road with him and waited for him.  Mitzi started getting restless so I brought her back then we walked back up and waited for him again.

When Steve came around the corner, the pup went nuts and greeted him as if he'd been gone for hours instead of minutes bless her.  We came home and I fed her then the three of us collapsed in the living room and we'll all be asleep by the end of The Bill!  lol

Steve said that the post box and back is the furthest he can safely go right now 'cos his knees were starting to get wobbly but he walked through all the corridors and stuff of the hospital yesterday so it's understandable that he's feeling it this morning!  I am too!  lol

Keep it up Steve... you'll get there in the end!

Tuesday, 2 January 2018

Supplements taken for the first time in a few days

Just taken my 3 supplements for the first time in a few days and I'm already feeling the positive effects again... just got to get back into the routine of taking them every morning again and within a couple of minutes I'll be more awake, just like now!

Not only do I feel more awake, but I feel more creative too which is awesome!

That was a nice surprise with the post!

Got a letter through the post about one of my PPI things.

I've been awarded £616.51 in mis-sold PPI which is either from Debenhams or Barclaycard.  I'm assuming it's Debenhams 'cos wouldn't Barclaycard use Barclays to send the letter instead of Santander?

Dunno for sure, but I'm going to email the PPI bods who started it for me to say I've accepted it and ask them how much their fee will be when it turns up in my account.

You watch me forget now though!  lol

Monday, 1 January 2018

I worked out in the car on the way home that...

Just got back from spending the day with the in-law's again and I worked out that we've spent more hours with Steve's family in the last 8 days than we have with my mum since my father's funeral in 2010!

We spent 10 hours with them on Christmas Day, 8 hours with them on Saturday and another 6 hours today.  That adds up to 24 hours in 8 days.

We spent 6 hours with me mum on the day of my father's funeral, 4 hours a week later and 4 hours the week after we got the pup.  We haven't been over there since.  That's 14 hours since 2010 but we've spent longer than that with Steve's family in just over a week.

The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was on the condition that we went over to see my mum regularly.

Steve happily agreed.

So why haven't we seen her in 7.5 years then?

Steve says that it's 'cos we don't have a car.

We could hire one.

He's putting in even less effort into getting a car than he is a job!!

I give up.

I'm not going to pressure him any more about getting a job or going over to see me mum.  I also won't go to the in-laws... after all, we don't have transport!  I won't buy any more gifts for them, only for my mum and friends.  Steve doesn't reckon he's got any money to get them gifts yet he gets more PIP than I do ESA yet I'm supposed to magic the money out of thin air for things he wants.

No more pushing me over.

I'll be as selfish in 2018 as he's been since 2010.

I give it until Valentine's Day... he'll whine that I haven't even got him a card let alone a gift, but he hasn't got me a card or gift for any reason (Valentine's Day, anniversary, birthday or Christmas) for at least 2 years so why is he whining for me being as selfish as him?

I give it until the end of February before he starts whining and I'll be expected to shoulder the blame for his faults.


He's expecting me to put up with it so surely I should be expecting the same of him?!