Wednesday, 23 May 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me three supplements... got two Calcium pills left then it's time to start a new tub/bottle!  Unfortunately the Iron and Multi haven't run out at the same time so I must have started taking them at different times.  I'll need to order some more of the Calcium when I've opened the new bottle but it's frustrating that I can't order all three at the same time.

Not to worry though, that's just how things roll with me sometimes!  lol

Namehog V TSOhosts

Got 3 emails from TSOhosts yesterday afternoon saying that they have re-set my password.

I'm like "huh?"

I went to the Namehog site this morning and the TSOhosts bods have bought out Namehog and they really haven't made a good first impression on me!

They've set all the domain names that I cancelled to auto-renew, I couldn't do anything without accepting their cookies and I couldn't put my debit card into my account for auto renewals.

They've lost a customer now.

I was with Namehog right from the start... getting on for 20 years and they were fantastic.

I contacted TSOhosts about the card not being accepted and apparently it's a known issue that they are working on and will be fixed "shortly".

Well they will "shortly" lose a customer and I'll give them a single star review and recommend everybody avoids them.

Steve's happy with FastHosts so I'm seriously considering changing to them instead 'cos you can pay monthly instead of annually which is more expensive but less of a shock when you get an invoice for £1000 every year for each domains and hostings!

I'm gonna give TSOhosts until the end of the week to sort out the known issue then potentially move to FastHosts.


I finally got to sleep some time after 2am.

I woke up at 8.30am.

I'm more awake, alert and ready to start the day after less than 7 hours sleep, yet when I sleep for 10-12 hours I'm totally wiped out, tired, can barely keep my eyes open and generally feeling bleh... how is that even possible??

Surely after more sleep you feel better and more awake, right?

So why am I not asleep until lunchtime?  Why do I feel more awake with less sleep than I do with more?!

Ho hum!

Tuesday, 22 May 2018

Tomorrow's studying

I'm guessing that because it took 35 hours to finish the DLU course, my tutor won't have expected me to finish it already, so I'm gonna work my way through a short course tomorrow that only lasts for I think it was 3-4 hours.

Then I'll aim to be finished all the free courses by September so that I can totally clear my memory and enrol for a module on childhood and child psychology module starting in October and goes until July but doesn't have an exam just 4 eTMAs so I can work my way through that just to see if my memory is good enough to start a level 1 OU course and take it from there.

For the first time in my life I genuinely think that I'll take things as they come and the module will give me a taste of a Level 1 course so that I will be able to tell if my memory is up to it yet.  I'm not going to pressure myself, I just need to go at my own pace and hope that the OpenLearn courses were a genuine taste of the difficulty level of each course!  If they are then I'll be fine on all the undergraduate courses that don't involve maths and it'll only be the post-graduate courses that I could start to struggle.

I'm not thinking that far ahead though, I just want to get all the free courses over and done with, then see if I get awarded ESA then I'll take it from there.

And it's finished!

I started the course yesterday morning and 35 hours later it's finito!

Some of the questions were a bit confusing because they asked for answers to things that hadn't been covered yet and a couple of links were dead links too, but for a free course I learnt a lot!

Just gotta wait for it to be marked now and I bet I'll fail!  lol

Not bad going for 35 hours studying with brain damage though!  😁

Taken me supplements

The multi got stuck halfway down my throat which made me retch and it's why I can't take capsules or larger pills.  They are all done and dusted for another day now though, thankfully.

Why rather than what I'm studying

Just watching an interview thing with Noel Fitzpatrick (aka the SuperVet) and one of the questions from the audience was what was he like as a vetinary student.

Apparently he was a geek at University, which is fair enough, but the partial sentence that really struck a chord with me was to work out why you're studying, rather than what you're studying.

I'm studying because I want to learn new things and keep my brain active while I'm disabled.  The brain damage has taken most of my memories and I honestly can't remember 5 minutes in the past, let alone anything further in the distance than that.  Yep, totally serious.

Sooo, the reason that I'm studying is to prove to myself that I still can.  That I'm still a passionate person and that just because I'm disabled doesn't mean I can't learn new things.

If I hadn't become disabled, if my brain hadn't been damaged, then I wouldn't have even thought about studying at University level because I would have told you I was too thick and I'd be kicked out in my first week there.

I've taken loads of OpenLearn courses which are University Level short courses and I did well with them.  A few of them were even Post-Graduate courses and I coped OK with those too.

I'm not thick, I just need to have more confidence in myself... need to tell my bullies that they have bugger all control over me any more and that if I get awarded ESA in November then I *will* study with the Open University as long as I choose a course that doesn't have an exam because I know, in my heart of hearts, that right now I would fail because of my brain damage.  I'm not saying that'll be my future, just for a few more years while I re-build my memory through studying is all.

You controlled me for too many years, Bullies, but not any more.  From now on, the only person who tells me what I'm capable of achieving is me and only me.

Monday, 21 May 2018

Started on another course this morning

More than a week after I applied, I was accepted onto my first course with DLU this morning and I've just finished my first assessment with them too!

Just submitted the first unit for marking so it's too late to do anything about it now!

I'm aiming to do one unit a day if I can but I can pretty much guarantee I'll have forgotten today's unit by the time I wake up and come down here tomorrow 'cos of the dratted brain damage!  Tsk!

Ho hum!

Sunday, 20 May 2018

I bet he'll complain about it tomorrow too!

Out of a shop costing £59.45, 40p is for the carrier bags which takes the total down to £59.05 yeah?  Take off £4.20 for my drinks and £25.35 for the mutual stuff leaves £29.50 purely for Steve's stuff.  Over £25 for Steve's stuff than my stuff and he's chosen brand name stuff like Toilet Duck (his choice to increase the price of the mutual dooberries) and Go Ahead bars (purely for him) as well as 2 Onken yoghurts costing £1 each (for him only too) as well as 2 malt loaves purely for him that are brand name (Soreen) and Galaxy Minstrels (for him only) and sausages, doughnuts, 3 lots of cake sandwich stuff etc yet all that I've added is 6 bottles of Sainsburys own brand pop.

Nothing else.

Steve's reasoning?  He put £20 towards the shopping "so we can afford more stuff".  I've put £50 a week aside for the shopping yet my stuff comes to less than a fiver!!

Maybe it's just my maths, but going by Steve's reasoning he should be adding an extra £21 every week *on top of* the money he puts in for his extra's so that it's fairer!

I've got nothing against him adding things to the shopping, but why add brand name stuff when there is the same stuff for less on own brand things?!

Just taken the pup for her walk

I think she's feeling her age because we only went up and down twice today and she's 8 years old so maybe her bones are aching or something?

Supplements taken

They all went down OK this morning!  Even the Calcium crumbs went down pretty easily without going everywhere in my mouth!

Saturday, 19 May 2018

Book review: 3 hour dad by Adam T Hourlution

✰✰✰✰✰ out of 5

Just finished reading this book and it's an adorable but very quick read!

It takes you through the rapid change from fun-loving, innocent, twenty-something who is more interested in completing his Star Wars figure collection than saving money for the future all the way to a brand new dad with the overwhelming responsibility it brings.

The author takes the reader through everything he was feeling, right from the first phone call in the middle of the night telling him to get to the labour ward fast all the way to unpacking all the new things for his surprise new baby!

It's a quick must-read for anyone who thinks it will never happen to them... it can and does as this book proves.  Set yourself up with a savings account just in case you need it and move any leftover money into it... better to be safe than sorry and all that!

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements... the Calcium went everywhere when I crunched it up and the multi kept refusing to be swallowed so it was only the Iron that went down easily!

Friday, 18 May 2018

"chocolate fairy dust cake" for lunch today

Got us a chocolate cake with soya milk in it so that I can have it instead of just Steve.

Had the first slice yesterday and while it was stronger/darker chocolate than I usually like, it was good to finally have a slice of proper cake that didn't make me ill so I'm gonna have another slice for me lunch then a burger for tea... now that all bar one manuscript is edited, I'm gonna have me tea and an early night for the first time this week then start studying either tomorrow or on Monday, depending on when I get the materials sent to me... achieved so much in the last few days!

So proud of myself!

Thursday, 17 May 2018

Pupils 1 v Teachers 0 lol

The hubby has just sent me this link about Scottish kids cheating in a literacy test - WTG kids says me!  lol

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements... the Iron was a PITA to get down so it melted, the multi was a struggle to swallow and the crumbs of the Calcium went everywhere in my mouth too!


Wednesday, 16 May 2018

Haven't achieved much today unfortunately

I walked the pup this morning then came home and typed out 2 synopses and edited a single manuscript but that's been it for my entire day!  😞

Tuesday, 15 May 2018

Taken me 3 supplements

They all went down OK this afternoon, which is good that I didn't have to get bloated with squash from trying to swallow them today, so I'm a happy bunny.

Easily pleased, me!  lol

Monday, 14 May 2018

What a shock!!

Just had someone come to the door saying that a savings policy that I thought was cancelled when we had money problems is almost ready to be paid out 'cos it matures in July and I'll then get £4,700 which is a total shock 'cos I could have sworn that I'd lost the money I'd paid in when I cancelled the policy... I certainly haven't paid anything into it for a few years so being told that the policy was still running and that it's almost matured was a total shock!

It means I can pay off BC in full and still have £2,000 left over!!  That means I'll be totally debt free and I can work on rebuilding my credit score as well as being able to have money to fall back on while I'm waiting to hear about ESA in November.

In theory, even if I don't get ESA I can cancel all my direct debits and use the money for groceries and stuff each week for 30 months.

I hope I do get ESA in November though, 'cos there's no way I can work so I will, in theory, be living on PIP until September 2019 then I'll be penniless, but at least I'll be out of debt!!

Taken me 3 supplements and...

...I've just realised that there are 5 more courses on that I want to do!

So, plans for this week are to do loads of editing of my manuscripts today and tomorrow then carry on studying!  I honestly thought I'd finished all the courses and was feeling lost without things to do, but my to-do list is huge now!  lol

Sunday, 13 May 2018

Just taken me 3 supplements again

They all went down OK this morning, thankfully.

I'm in a foul mood though and I don't know why!

Saturday, 12 May 2018

Supplements taken, but...

Just taken me 3 supplements but the multi was a PITA to get down today.  Got 9 days of Calcium left, so I'd best check I've got some more!!

Got 2 bottles of Iron, 1 of Calcium and none of the multi so I'll need to put in an order for the Calcium and multi soon, just to be sure I don't run out!

Virus free and backed up for another week

The virus scan has finished... seems to take 26 hours to completely scan my entire hard drive.  Backed everything up again too, so if something catastrophic happens to my hard drive, everything is up to date as of about 15 minutes ago.

Friday, 11 May 2018

Just taken me supplements and...

...all 3 of 'em put up a fight today!  😞

Thursday, 10 May 2018

Supplements taken again

Just taken me three supplements again.

The Iron disintegrated but other than that, things weren't too bad today, fortunately.

Wednesday, 9 May 2018

Supplements taken and more details about getting 20% off

Just taken me 3 supplements and they all went down pretty easily this morning.

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Tuesday, 8 May 2018

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They even do supplements for pets and offer a student discount too as well as frequent offers and sales... you really can't find a better place for supplements online!

Supplements taken

Just taken me three supplements and it was the multivitamin that was a nightmare to swallow this time, so I'm now bloated because of all the squash I had to drink to swallow it!

Monday, 7 May 2018

It's taken 30 years, but...

I've never been good at maths, but I woke up this morning knowing my 9 times table!!

I'm far from fast, but I can, for the first time in my life, work out what the answer to any of the 9 times tables without a calculator!

Steve asked me a couple of multiplication questions at random and while it took me a few seconds, I got them right without any kind of calculation device in sight!

He asked me what 8x8 was and I didn't have a clue, but I got the 9 times table questions right each time!

I'll never be a Countdown contestant, but I'm so proud of myself right now!

Sunday, 6 May 2018

Fourth course on Alison

Just finished my fourth course on and there was another error that meant I only completed 90% of one of the modules until I did the assessment, went back to the topic, read it for at least the fifth time and this time it actually worked!

They obviously don't test their courses before they release them to the world!  Tsk!

Saturday, 5 May 2018

Hardly fair, is it?

Just completed my third course with and got 12 questions wrong on my first attempt at the assessment so I failed.

Got 7  wrong on the second attempt so failed that one too.

Scraped by with 2.5% above the pass mark on my third attempt and took module 8.

It answered 8 questions that the assessment had asked all three times.  The only reason I scraped by on the third attempt was that I already knew the answers based on a previous course.

If the assessment had been at the end of the course I would have got 4 questions wrong but would still have passed first time on what was supposed to be an assessment of what you had studied throughout the course, so why are so many questions being asked about something you don't even study until after you've taken the assessment??

It would only take a few minutes to change the html for the assessment to be moved from the end of module 7 to the end of module 8 and it would be fairer on future students too!!

Such a good girl!

Mitzi gets a VivaDogs box every month with toys and stuff in it.

There was a pack of wipes and food with this months box.  She's on a diet atm so I put the food onto Freegle but if nobody wants it today then it'll be binned tomorrow.

She's a spectacular pup though 'cos I've just wiped her down with one of the wipes and she's white again now!

She wasn't sure at first so I didn't force her but she was a brave little pup and eventually let me wipe most of her body apart from her legs and chest.  I don't want to force her into something so new to her so I just did her body and face then binned the wipe.

Mitzi was an amazing girl though... just stood there and let me do it!

Just stood there and let me do it!

Supplements taken

Just taken me three supplements... the Iron kept refusing to go down for some reason though!

Friday, 4 May 2018

Power cuts

Just had 2 power cuts which meant our internet, TV and landline phone were all out of action and our laptops were quickly using up battery power too!

Apparently Steve only gets an hour on his battery but I get 5½ hours on mine!!

Just unenrolled from last night's Alison course

The Alison course that I was whining about yesterday has been unenrolled from now... I was wasteing my time on it and because I couldn't remember what I'd learnt yesterday I failed the first assessment.

I'm gonna concentrate on the courses I'm passionate about now - childcare and mental health, nothing else.


Thursday, 3 May 2018

Third Alison course is taking forever!

It's a business course that was supposed to last 6-10 hours but I haven't even got through a third of it!!

There's an assessment too that I'll have to take but I can't even remember what I learnt this morning, let alone after 36 hours!!

Wednesday, 2 May 2018

First course finished

Just scraped through the test on my first course with a score of 88%.  I had to get 80% to pass.

I know what to expect now though and I'm about to start on my second course which only takes about an hour so I'll be able to have an early night tonight, thankfully!

Just got back from walking our senior pup

She seems to have something programmed into her that means she only poo's when she's out with Steve... maybe she knows that I need to bring her home to get the long handled pooper scooper but Steve can bend over with a carrier bag 'cos that's what happens when she's out with him?

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again and I'm trying to put heading tags in the HTML that I've been learning on a course, but it hasn't been working so Steve's in control now!  lol

Tuesday, 1 May 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and I'm belching for England now!  lol


I hope any fellow Pagans have a blessed Beltane today... bright blessings!

Family walkies this morning

We both took the pup out for her walkies this morning... I took her for 50% of her normal walk with me then Steve took her for 50% of her normal walk with him so she went for a decent length and it was more interesting for her too!

She did 2 wee's and a poo which Steve cleared up and put into our back yard ready for picking up and putting into the rubbish bag on Sunday evening ready for Monday's pick-up by the rubbish collectors!

She seems to be a bit sore or doddery in her legs so maybe she's starting to feel her age now and we shouldn't walk her as far?

Monday, 30 April 2018

Finished the first FutureLearn course

That's it now until Monday when I take the second one then that's it. 

I have, potentially, found a distance learning college that I would love to at least try, as long as the books are available on the computer instead of paper books like you buy in Smiths or Waterstones or whatever.

Wish me luck!

Apparently we're materially deprived too!

Doing a course with FutureLearn and according to Eurostat, we're materially deprived 'cos we can't afford 3 of the 9 things on the list:  a week long holiday away from home each year; unexpected financial costs and a personal car!  Those 3 things are definitely luxuries for us!

Our washer/drier works again now!

Apparently all the pipes and filters and stuff were clogged up with lint and fluff and stuff, so the engineer cleaned all that out and gave us a bag of something or other to put through the machine once a month to give it a deep clean from the inside so that it won't break again.

Fifteen quid for a year's supply of the granules ain't bad if it means we can wash and dry our clothes again!

Sunday, 29 April 2018

Bloody cats

Took the pup out for her walk this morning and trod in some poo that a cat had done again.

The council threatened to take us to court over some dog poo that wasn't Mitzi's, yet cats are allowed to poo where they like with no come-back on their owners!  Hardly fair, is it??

Steve's emailing the Council about it again but I bet the cat's owners will get away with it for the second time!

Saturday, 28 April 2018

Virus free and backed up for another week

The weekly virus scan of my entire hard drive has just finished and I'm still virus free so I've backed everything up and emptied my recycle bin and I'm all set for another week of using my likkle laptop, safe in the knowledge that I haven't accidentally infected anyone and I've got a back-up just in case the poo hits the fan in the next 7 days.

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements, so I'm all set for the rest of the day now!

Friday, 27 April 2018

So tired!

Been searching for free courses I can study but there's always a catch  👎 😔

Thursday, 26 April 2018

10 courses in 3 days

I've studied, almost daily, for getting on for 6 weeks (if not more) and I've just finished the last free course that I'm genuinely interested in.

I feel totally lost now though!  What on earth am I going to do with my days now that I haven't got any studying to do?!

At a guess, I'd say I'll be spending my time doing survey after survey!  lol

Pup walked

Steve said to let her be again, just like he said yesterday, but the pup needs her daily walkies so I took her out again.

He said that his legs are too painful after getting them changed, so I reckon that if I take the pup out on a Wednesday and Saturday with the occasional Thursday, Steve should be able to take her out the rest of the time to help them both to loose weight and get the benefit of exercising too... Steve said that it was just the motivation that he was struggling with but after a couple of days his mood really picked up so hopefully if we split the pup's walkies, like we have so far this week, all 3 of us will feel the benefit!

9 courses in 3 days

Just finished the penultimate free course that I wanted to do and I'm gonna enrol on the last one, upload the table to the last (advanced courses) page then feel lost!

I guess I'll just be able to keep up with all the surveys better!  lol

7 and 8 courses done in 3 days

Done the two 10 hour courses and just waiting for the second of the statements to be available to upload to my site.

Just got 2 more shorter courses to do and I'll have finished 'em all in about 6 weeks!  Bearing in mind I was struggling with the Level 1 (beginner) courses at the start and I'm now coping OKish with a few post graduate courses, I'm feeling really proud of myself!

Another post-graduate course!

That's 5 post-graduate courses in 7 courses!!! lol

Wednesday, 25 April 2018

6 courses in 2 days

Just finished another Level 3 course and I'm well and truly cream crackered, so I'm gonna leave it there for studying today and just take a few surveys then have an early night.

5 courses in 2 days

Just finished the first of today's courses and I definitely feel that the more you progress through the levels, the more dull and boring the courses become!


Pup walked, supplements taken

Steve's legs were painful after getting them changed yesterday, so I took the pup for her walk then came home and took me supplements.

I can't walk the pup as far as Steve takes her so I just take her up and down to our neighbours either side 3 times when I take her out.

Mitzi wasn't interested in going for her walk first off, even when I called "walkies" to her, so I went to the living room door and showed her the lead and it was only then that she realised what was going to happen... she's a senior pup now who just seems to want to spend most of her day asleep, so maybe she's starting to feel stiff in her old age or something?  She's OK when she's moving, it's just the getting started that she's finding difficult.

Poor pup.

Tuesday, 24 April 2018

4 courses in 1 day

I've already taken me prescription, so I'm just waiting for the two statements to appear so that I can add them to my navigation page, then I'll upload them and take a few surveys to get my head to wind down a bit then have an early night for a change  👌

3 courses in 1 day

Just finished me third course of the day... more interesting than the first two courses, thankfully, but why have OpenLearn put postgraduate course extracts on the advanced undergraduate courses?!

Still at 100% postgraduate today!

Just enrolled on my third course of the day and it's another postgraduate one!  Can't blame Steve for this choice of course though 'cos he wasn't here and didn't choose it - I did it purely at random meself!

2 courses in 1 day

Just finished me second course of the day... a Master's taster at that!!

Let's see if the third one is an undergraduate course instead of a postgraduate one!  lol

100% postgraduate so far today

Just started on my next Level 3 course and it's another post graduate one... this one says it's a Masters course extract!!

1 course in 1 day

Just finished my first advanced course... it was supposed to take 12 hours and only had 7 pages including the intro and learning outcomes so I've finished it already!

Doubt I'll study at post graduate level if all the courses are as dull as this one was though!  😕

Just enrolled on my first course of the day and...

I asked Steve to pick which course I started on and he chose "the third one on the second page" so I duely signed up for it and it's a flippin' postgraduate course!!  lol

Nowt like being thrown in at the deep end!  lol

That's me supplements taken

It's been a few days since I last took 'em and I've got 19 days worth of Calcium left.  I'm pretty sure I've got some more already but I'll just check while I remember... hold on!

Yep, 1 Calcium and 2 Irons left so I don't need to put in another order just yet.

Monday, 23 April 2018

It's gonna be a busy day today, so...

Steve's got someone coming over at about 2.30pm then we've got the shopping coming tonight as well as having over 90 surveys, so I'm gonna have today off and start studying again tomorrow instead.

Sunday, 22 April 2018

That's me trousers and bra's just arrived, so...

Me order has just been delivered so I'm gonna take me pills and head to bed now.

Nite nite orl!


Just signed up for a basic maths course with OpenLearn and there's a test at the end of it!!  I'm going to fail this course, I just know it!

16 in 8 days

I've just finished the last Level 2/intermediate course that only 6 weeks ago I never imagined was even possible, especially as the first Level 2 OpenLearn course I studied 8 days ago was an OU Level 3 course!!

Gotta wait for my statement to be downloadable then I'll add it to the page and put the table onto it's own intermediate page, just like I did with the beginner courses 9 days ago.

I'm so unbelievably proud of myself for what I've achieved in the last 8 days... never thought I'd be intelligent enough to even attempt one of the courses, but I've done 16 of 'em and while there were a few iffy bits in some of the courses, I still managed to do them all!

15 in 8 days

Just finished the penultimate Level 2/intermediate course, so I've done 15 courses in 8 days now.

Last one to do then I'll be startin' my first Level 3/advanced course!!!


Saturday, 21 April 2018

14 in 7 days

Just finished me fifth course of the day and I've got a grand total of two left to do tomorrow, then that's all the intermediate courses done and dusted, which means I can move the statements onto their own page and go through the advanced courses, saving the ones I want to do ready for next week!

I'm really getting into the studying thing now!!  Just gotta save up for my first OU undergraduate course!

My confidence has really improved over the last 6 weeks... this time two months ago and I would never have believed that I'd even consider writing this, but my confidence is sky high now... as long as I avoid science and maths courses I'll be OK I reckon!

13 in 7 days

Like at lunchtime, I finished the fourth course of the day just as our tea turned up!

I discovered another course that I hadn't put on the list too, so instead of having two courses left to do now, I've got three so I'll have finished the Level 2 courses by this time tomorrow, ready to make a start on the Advanced (Level 3) courses on Monday!

12 in 7 days

Just finished my third course of the day and it was about health assessments instead of the course assessments I was thinking!  lol

11 in 7 days

Finished off another course while I was having me lunch... this one was so much more interesting!

10 in 7 days

Such a boring course that one!  I can see why it's not a paid for course any more!

Got six more Intermediate courses left to study which, in theory, should be done and dusted by bed time tomorrow!

Supplements taken

I remembered after all.

Feeling bloated with the squash for some reason again though  😕

Took our puppy out for her walk

She was mostly a good girl... wanted to go on the walk that Steve takes her on instead of the one I take her on though  😕

Time for me vitamins then studying for the rest of the day!

You watch me forget the vitamins!  lol


Just ordered meself 2 tops, 2 bras and trousers for under £63 to replace the holey ones that I've been wearing up to now, and I've still got £100 left to spend after all the bills and shopping have come out!

Getting the lump sum for PIP definitely came at the right time!

Friday, 20 April 2018

9 in 6 days

That's me fifth course of the day done and dusted!  Not bad going considering I didn't even start until about 10am today!

8 in 6 days

Just finished my fourth course of the day and I've taken me pills but I'm thinking of doing another course now before I head to bed 'cos I'm still not tired!

Bumble bees

We've just had a beautiful, huge bumble bee fly in through the window, bumble around the living room for a few seconds, then out, got disorientated and flew back in again for a few more seconds then disappeared off on his or her merry way again.

It's been literally years since I last saw a bumble bee and I'd forgotten how big, beautiful and loud they were!

7 in 6 days

Finished my third course of the day... gonna do one more then head to bed for an early night.

6 in 6 days

Just finished me sixth course too.

Thankfully this one made me much less emotional than the previous one!

5 in 6 days

Just finished my fifth level 2 course and it has made me really sad for a couple of the children in the video's!

I'm glad they were recorded and the mum's gave their permission for the recordings to be used on the course and it helps to illustrate one of the points made just before, but it's so sad that the children aren't cared more about by their mum's!

Don't get me wrong, the OU/OpenLearn have done nothing wrong and the researchers didn't do anything wrong at all, it just makes me sad that any child feels like the children in those video's is all!  😔

Supplements taken

Just taken me three supplements and I'm feeling bloated with the squash now!!

Just taken the pup for her walk then fed her

Steve usually takes her down to the postbox and back but I only take her to our neighbours on either side a few times so she was plodding along quite happily until I stopped walking and she kinda looked back at me as if to say "come on then, lets keep going!" but there's no way I can walk that far so we came back to the neighbour on the other side and she looked back at me again in confusion, bless her little furry paws!

When we got home, I took her harness off and fed her while Steve was talking to his boss on the phone.

As a bit of interest to her morning!  lol

Thursday, 19 April 2018

Even more proud of myself now!

Just phoned BC and increased the direct debit to £100 a month starting this month... now that I've paid off CO I can afford the extra £25 a month and I'll have £200 a month more than I had yesterday that I'm gonna save up each month so that I can pay an extra £1000 every 5 months, so hopefully I'll be totally debt free by this time next year!!

My ESA will be taken off me in November now though!  lol

That's the PPI and CO sorted

Phoned the PPI bods this morning and paid what I owed, which made me proud of myself, then I went to get me hair cut and I no longer have a fringe then I came home and cleared one of my credit cards and closed the account, then the debt management bods to let them know too.

That's saved me £25 a month that I'm going to move over to BC then I'll be able to pay another £200 a month extra too and still have £20 left over for myself!

I can so do this!!

Wednesday, 18 April 2018

Just had a letter from the DWP about PIP

I'll get the backdated amount tomorrow then every 4 weeks on a Friday until September 2019, so assuming the money appears in my account tomorrow I'll pay Citizen for the PPI dooberry, arrange for an eye test and totally pay off CO which will free up £25 a month which I'll pay BC so that it's paid off sooner 'cos it'll be £100 a month instead of £75 so it won't make a huge difference in terms of paying it off sooner, but it's one less thing to worry about.

I can so do this!!

Tuesday, 17 April 2018

For easier calculations...

I've just decided that I'll start counting from 1 on each of the levels of Open Learn courses that I do so that I don't get too confused over the numbers of courses I've done, so...

Beginner (Level 1) courses:  57 in 29 days
Intermediate (Level 2) courses:  4 in 1 day so far

Supplements taken

It wasn't too bad today, thankfully!

Got a book to read and review so I'm gonna have the day off studying for the first time in a month so that I can do it, then I'm getting me hair cut on Thursday, so I'll start studying again on Friday and spend all weekend on it too.  Think I deserve a break for a few days!

I've found where the modules are again on the OU site too, so I'll add those to my study plan tomorrow too... you watch me forget where they are by this afternoon though!  lol

Monday, 16 April 2018

61 in 30

Really can't understand science courses... didn't understand most of the course I've just done, so glad there weren't any quizzes on it or I would have failed dismally!!

Really not enjoying this course :-(

Way too scientific and medical for my liking!  The first section was OKish, but when it started talking about science and the brain and hypnotic camels or whatever it was, it totally lost me unfortunately!


Missed out one of the completed courses, so... (60 in 30)

I've already done 3 and started on my fourth, but for some reason I missed out one of the 3 courses and I don't know which one or why!  😐

59 in 30

Just finished my second Intermediate course and that was definitely a level 2 course.

More specialised than the level 1 courses but I'm enjoying it so far!

58 in 30

Just finished the Level 3 course and, like the unexpected Level 2 courses, it was a lot better than I was dreading... it got me thinking more about the stories I write for children and how I can improve them before sending the manuscripts off next time!

Oh dear! lol

Just enrolled on a level 2 course 'cos I'd finished all the Level 1 courses that I want to do...

It's an extract from a level 3 course!!

I took a couple of level 1 courses that were extracts from level 2 and they were OK but a level 3 course is the last year of undergraduate study!!


Sunday, 15 April 2018

57 in 29

Just finished the last course of the ones I 'saved' 29 days ago and I've done 5 courses just today!  That equals my record doesn't it?  Or is that 7 in a day??

Either way, I'm going to go back to looking at all the courses and 'save' all the intermediate ones I want to do ready for making a start on them tomorrow!

I could be wrong, but I think the 'beginner' courses I've done this month are tasters of Level 1 undergraduate courses, in which case, if they are, I can cope with Level 1 courses at the Open University as long as there isn't an exam and I'm genuinely interested in what I'm studying.

The pup's just had a bath

Steve's just bathed Mitzi 'cos she was dirty and smelly... she was reluctant to start with but she got lots of praise and a biscuit when she'd come back into the living room and had a bit of a roll around, bless her tiny furry paws!

56 in 29

Just finished me 4th course of the day and enrolled on the last one on my list!!

I'm on a roll!  lol

55 in 29

Just finished my 3rd course of the day!

55 down, just 2 more to go in less than a month!

54 in 29

In 5 hours I've completed two OpenLearn courses and I'm about to start on my third of the day too!

Yay me!

53 in 29

Just finished the first course of the day about writing essays, so I'll do the other essay-writing one now!

Supplements taken!

The Calcium crumbs went everywhere, the Iron was a PITA and the multi was reluctant to go down this morning  😒

Saturday, 14 April 2018

52 in 28

Such a dull course!  Thankfully there weren't any quizzes to do on this one!

51 in 28

The first half was OK but I'm glad it's over and done with now!  Scored 87% so I got the badge too, but it was a struggle today.


100% on the week 6 quiz

Just taken the week 6 quiz and it was all fine and dandy until the last question, but with Steve's help on the first of the two parts I scored 100%!!


Supplements taken

All 3 of 'em went down without a problem this morning!  Yay!  👌👍

Friday, 13 April 2018

96% for the first week's quiz!!

Just finished studying the first week of my next course and scored a huge 96% in the end of week quiz... how awesome is that!!  Got 100% for the first 4 questions and got one question wrong on the last one... not bad going!

That's me prescription delivered, but...

Me AP has just been delivered and they delivered the ones I was on before, so what was the point of changing the flippin' prescription two months ago??

I give up!

Ooh! It's a badged course!

Just enrolled on my next OpenLearn course and it's another badged one!  That'll mean there are quizes to do at the end of every week and I need to score at least 50% on the two compulsory quizzes at the end of weeks 4 and 8... I just need to remember that I can check the answers in a separate tab if I need to so that I'm not totally reliant on my memory.

I can so do this!

Supplements taken

The Iron disintegrated again, but other than that everything was fine and dandy!

Virus scan started

Just started me weekly virus scan... hopefully my machine will wake up tomorrow morning instead of forcing me to do a hard reboot like the last 2 weeks.

We shall see what happens!

Thursday, 12 April 2018

50 in 26

Just finished my 50th course with OpenLearn and I know for sure now that I need to avoid maths and technology courses like the plague.  There's nothing wrong with the courses or anything, they just don't work well with my damaged brain is all.

Gonna unsave the other technology and maths courses I've currently got saved in my profile so that I'm not tempted to try them any more!

I was wrong about the phishing thing

I was wrong in my phishing post... it was a genuine email, just not done as well as I was expecting is all - if it had been Google Mail sending it then it would have had my name and email address in it, but it was a separate part of Google that the message came from so they wouldn't have had access to my name and email address unless they logged in as me which they would need my password for and there are flip knows how many millions of accounts so someone just got lazy is all.  lol


Been working on a cyber security course with OpenLearn for the last couple of days and I've just put what I've learnt on that course to use on a phishing email apparently from Google Analytics!

From first look, it seems to be a genuine email from Google... technical words used, perfect spelling and grammar etc, but it wasn't addressed to me personally so the alarm bells started ringing, it used an address I don't use for Google Analytics, so the alarm bells carried on ringing, then there was a link at the bottom of the email asking me to go to a page to update my settings, so I hovered over it and it wasn't a Google address so there's no way I'm clicking on it.

Even a week ago I would have done and I would have been victim to a phishing scam, but thanks to the course telling me what checks to make, I'm free and safe from a phishing scam!  Yaaaaay!

Thank you OpenLearn!!

Taken me supplements

Just taken me supplements and had a nightmare getting them down today!!  The Calcium crumbs went everywhere in my mouth, the Iron disintegrated and the multi refused to go down!  😞

Not good  👎

Wednesday, 11 April 2018

Just taken me supplements...

Just got back from seeing C and we were talking about vitamins and stuff so I've just taken my three for the first time in forever and the multi is kicking in quick so the cold that Steve's passed on to me has obviously been depleting my vitamin stores again.

Feeling a little bit more human already so I just need to keep taking 'em now!  lol

Tuesday, 10 April 2018

Gonna have...

It's not even 10pm and I'm going to bed!

Steve registered with OpenLearn this afternoon and enrolled on a course that took his interest... it's an Advanced level course though which is the equivalent to the last year of an Undergraduate course!!

Monday, 9 April 2018

49 in 23

Just finished another course - just waiting for the statement so that I can put it on the page and upload it then I can go to bed.

48 in 23

Considering how much I was struggling with the course last night, I'm really proud of myself not only for getting through the course, but getting a great score on the final quiz too!

Just finished the week 8 quiz and I scored...

43.67 out of 47  👍👍👍

I'm really proud of myself for scoring so well considering I struggled with the week 4 quiz and I got a "very well done" for my score too which has made it all worthwhile!

I'm gonna crack open a bottle of J2O in celebration now!

The week 4 compulsory quiz was...

Just taken the mid-course quiz and it was tough going but I got over 50% that I needed to score on that and another 50% in week 8 so I'm not too worried about it!

Saturday, 7 April 2018

Book Review: Between you and me by Priyanka Chatterjee

☆☆☆☆ out of 5

This is a good book, but other than the introduction, the author hadn't been talking to her younger self at all, she's talking to the reader of the book, so the title of the book is very misleading! The only hint that it's written to someone else is just two words at the start of each section ("Dear P,") then immediately goes back into talking directly to the reader! Seems pointless to say that it's written to the younger you when the author barely mentions her younger self!

It's worth having a read of, just don't expect to find out too much from the notes that don't actually make an appearance in the book!

Been a loooong day today

Woke up at 4am and couldn't get back to sleep.  It's now almost 10pm and I can barely keep my eyes open!


Friday, 6 April 2018

47 in 21

Finished my second Level 2 course of the day so I know, from a very brief glimpse at what Level 2 courses are like, that I can definitely cope with the level, I just need to work on my memory so that I can get through the exams too!

Just about to start on my next course and...

Just enrolled on my second course of the day and this one is an extract from a level 2 course as well!

Basically, 100% of the courses I've enrolled on today have been for level 2 (out of 3) courses even though they are on OpenLearn as being introductory courses!  Assuming I get through this course reasonably OK, I'll know that I can handle level 2 as well as level 1 courses at University level... it really was just the exam that I didn't pass because of my brain damage when I tried it the first time, so I'll keep working on improving my memory knowing that, in theory, I can cope with a level 2 course at the OU!

I never thought I'd say that!!


46 in 21

Had yesterday off cos I was feeling so yucky with this dratted cold but I've just completed the next course and I'm back into the studying mood again now, thankfully!

Blimmin' typical innit!

I've been taking an AP for at least 18 years.

In that time, it's changed twice.

The first time was to change it from a brand name to a generic one.

The second time was because the brand I'd been getting had changed their recipe and it now had lactose in it.

No other changes in 18 years.

So why are they suddenly finding it so difficult to get hold of it?

This is the second month the pharmacy have had problems and it's only because I've got some left over that I'm reasonably sane still!

When my GP phoned me about the recipe changing he said he'd get on to the pharmacy about a different generic brand that was lactose free.

12 pills arrived a few days later with an IOU from the pharmacy for another 16 pills.

I phoned the pharmacy and asked them to keep these in stock for me.

I was told it'd take up to 4 days for the first lot because it wasn't named and I didn't have a repeat naming it but it'd be with me within the normal 5 days after that.

No probs says I.

Logged on to the GP prescription thing and put in another repeat which was sorted and sent to the pharmacy 10 days ago.

I've been waiting ever since.

In theory I'll be getting 44 pills 'cos of the 16 that the pharmacy owe me and 28 for the repeat I put in.

That won't happen though!  I can almost guarantee it!

I'm just glad that I've got most of my previous prescription left before they changed the recipe otherwise I'd have gone totally nuts again by now!


Thursday, 5 April 2018

Don't suppose anyone has got some...

I'm well and truly under the weather with Steve's cold... I look like Rudolf and can only breathe through my mouth!


Wednesday, 4 April 2018

45 in 19

Just finished my latest OpenLearn course and I'm gonna catch up on other stuff for the rest of the afternoon now - got 2 books to read and review at the very least!  lol

On the end of course quiz, I scored...


I would have been happy with 60% 'cos I really didn't enjoy this course, but I'm really proud of the final result!



Blimey Charlie!!

I'm seriously not liking this course, but I've just finished session 4 and scored 90% on it!

That's my best score on the entire course yet!!

Other than question 8 that I got wrong, I got the other 10 questions right first time!!


Tuesday, 3 April 2018

44 in 18

Just whizzed through the third course of the day!

The fourth course is really tough going!

42 and 43 in 18

Just completed my first and second courses of the day and I'm about to enrol on my third.

Monday, 2 April 2018

41 in 17

Just finished me seventh course of the day - an interesting change from the previous one!

40 in 17

Just finished my sixth course of the day... talk about dull!


38 and 39 in 17

Just done another couple of courses and enrolled on my sixth of the day!!

37 in 17

Just finished the third course of the day!  Seemingly a productive day for me!

35 and 36 in 17

Already completed two courses this morning and I've just started on the third of the day... pretty good going considering it's only lunchtime!

Sunday, 1 April 2018

34 in 16

Not bad going, I've been home for 4 hours and managed to do 3 courses.  The one I've just done didn't teach me anything I didn't already know unfortunately.

33 in 16

Just finished a philosophy course... not as interesting as I'd hoped unfortunately!


32 in 16

Just finished my first course of the day... it was very much teaching granny to boil eggs for me though!  lol

Another 7 hours today

Andrew came over 2 weeks ago and there were 10 hours left to be equal to how long I'd seen my mum since 2010.

Steve sees his dad for 5 of those hours a week and his sister for a couple of hours a week as standard, then we spent 7 hours with his entire family today, so 5+2+7=14 so Steve's seen his family more in 2 weeks than I've seen my mum in almost 9 years!!

No, that's not a typo.  Steve's seen his family more in a fortnight that I've seen my mum in getting on for 9 years.  

So much for going to see her regularly eh?

Saturday, 31 March 2018

31 in 15

Just finished the second course of the day... found this one interesting and got 100% on the end-of-course quiz too!

30 in 15

Just finished the first course of the day... interesting stuff!

Friday, 30 March 2018

29 in 14

Just finished me third course of the day and I've taken me pill so I'm gonna read and review a book then head to bed.

28 in 14

Just finished my second course of the day, gonna take me pill and aim for one more course then I'll have an early night, I reckon.

27 in 14

Just finished the first course of the day and enrolled on the second one.  Both childcare so far today... might see what other childcare ones I can do today too.

Thursday, 29 March 2018

26 in 13

Studied 5 courses today and heard back from the OU about the email I sent last night (or whenever it was)... apparently the Access courses are what have replaced the Openings courses and they've got all sorts of things in place to help with exams which is awesome... just gotta be able to afford it now!  lol

25 in 13

Just finished my fourth course of the day and it's not even 6pm yet so I'm gonna squeeze a fifth course in too!

24 in 13

Just finished another course... I'm thinking one more then I'll head to bed for an early night for a change!

23 in 13

Just finished my second course of the day and enrolled on my third!

Just heard back from the tribunal

I've been awarded standard rate daily living but nothing for mobility but that's £200 a month more than I'm getting now and I don't want to risk losing it so I won't be taking my life after all  👌

22 in 13

Just finished my first OpenLearn course of the day and I'm about to start my second.

After I've done all the OpenLearn courses I wanna study, I'm gonna look into modules instead of full courses, just while I'm re-training my brain to remember again!

Wednesday, 28 March 2018

21 in 12

Just finished me 4th course of the day and I'm wiped out now, so I'm gonna wait until I get the statement, add it to my navigation page, upload it then head to bed  👌

20 in 12

Just finished my third course of the day and enrolled on my fourth.

19 in 12

Just finished me 19th OpenLearn course in 12 days and enrolled on my 20th course.

18 in 12

Just finished me 18th OpenLearn course and enrolled on my 19th.

Book review: How To Live: To Live is Hard; Never Give-up by Trina Jordan

☆☆ out of 5

I had high hopes for this book, given the title.

I thought it'd give me ideas of how to improve my life and inspire me to make my life better than it had ever been before.


It's full of lecturing and made me constantly feel that the author was talking down to me. Made me feel like she knew me personally and knew what was best for me so kept going on about how you can do this and you can do that, which sounds inspirational but after the first few times it gets to be really annoying.

There's all sorts of spelling and grammar mistakes, on top of hypenating random words that have never been hypenated outside this book.

There are small bits that are kinda OK, but the content of the book isn't anything like the title promises.

There's a title image at the top of every page that takes up at least a quarter of each page and the font is huge as well as being double line spaced so it's more like 75 pages than 209 if you take the image and double line spacing out!

There are way too many characters who make an appearance for a couple of pages then are never mentioned again.

I appreciate that the author put a lot of herself into the book, but it needs oneheckuva lot of proof-reading and editing as well as a lot less lecturing in the content of the book.

Save your money on this book. Sorry.

Tuesday, 27 March 2018

17 in 11

Just finished another OpenLearn course... this one was really tough for me because of all the maths in it and the paragraph about PUFin at the start of each week was incredibly annoying!

It's done and dusted now though, thankfully, and I know for sure that I can't handle University level maths so I'm not even going to try unless it's a necessary part of a different course... no more maths only courses though!

Just had the telephone tribunal

Talk about intense!!

I very much doubt I've been awarded PIP 'cos I couldn't answer a lot of the questions and the doctor said that Korsakov is mainly Dementia instead of physical and I need to ask my GP about why my mobility problems aren't in my notes either.

Ho hum.  If I don't get re-awarded the ESA in November then I know exactly how I'm going to take my life at the start of 2019.  I'm not suicidal but if I don't get the ESA then I will have exactly £0.00 a month to live on, which isn't realistic, so it's better all round for me not to be here.

Monday, 26 March 2018

16 in 10

Just done another course which inspired me to organise my Chrome bookmarks better!  lol

Sunday, 25 March 2018

Facebook data

Steve said he's downloaded the data that Facebook have on him and he was happy that there weren't any phone numbers or addresses or anything, so that encouraged me to download my own.

I refuse to open the zip file with my info in it though, 'cos it's got malware in it!!

If it weren't for AVG's constant vigilence, I'd have opened it without a thought!

Thank you for protecting me, AVG!

15 in 9

Just finished my third course of the day, just waiting for the statement to appear in my profile so that I can add it to my site.

14 in 9

Finished another course... just waiting for the statements and I'll upload both of today's courses to my navigation page!

13 in 9

Just finished another course that had obviously copied and pasted almost the entire contents of one of the courses I did a couple of days ago!

There were little bits of new information, but most of it was word for word the same as one of the other courses!

Saturday, 24 March 2018

12 in 8

What an interesting course!

Just finished studying the child psychology course and it was totally fascinating!

I was dreading it being pages full of theories and I was imagining a child psychologist sitting in a room with a child and their parent/carer/adult sitting next to them just talking and talking but it's not like that at all!  There are so many settings a child psychologist can work in that I never realised before!

It's reignited my love of childcare and it's something I want to study more of for definite!

Child psychology course next

I've got rid of all the "key skills" courses now and decided to enrol on the child psychology course instead!

The key skills courses

I put 3 key skills courses into "my saved items" bit, but you seem to need to already be on an OU course to do them and instead of doing them as a block of study, you need to do it over at least 3 months so that you can build a portfolio and show your progress.

I'll take the key skills courses off and find a different course to do instead.


50 hour course next

Just about to start me next course, the longest one so far at 50 hours and I won't be able to do much on Tuesday 'cos of the phone tribunal, but hopefully I'll have it finished by then... not gonna rush it, it'll take as long as it takes!

11 in 8 - that was a hard course!!

Just finished the science course - interesting studying it but definitely the hardest one so far!

The first page, the introduction of all things, had maths as well as science in it and a few of the activities involved maths as well - if there had been marked quizes like the previous 10, I would definitely have failed the course!

If you enjoy science and maths then definitely enrol on the course, but if they freak you out then take things really slowly and make lots of notes!

Next course is a science course!

I've avoided science since I took my GCSE's, so why have I just enrolled in a university level science course?

Just to see what it's like!

It's about nutrition, vitamins and minerals and it's only an introductory (level 1) course so I'm not expecting to get anywhere near passing it, it's just to see what biology course at university level are like is all!

You watch, I'll be doing a history or geography course next!  ROFL


No I won't!  lol

10 in 8

Just finished another course, which means I've studied and passed 10 courses in the last 8 days which ain't bad going!

9 in 8

Just finished another OpenLearn course... just waiting for the statement then I'll make a start on the next one!

Virus scan and backup done and dusted

Totally virus free and completely backed up for another week!  Only 2 minor bursts of anger this week too, so the wooziness is reducing slowly too!

Friday, 23 March 2018

8 in 7 now!

The eighth course was my third long one that took 2 days instead of a few hours but it's done and dusted now!

Another hour

Steve's just seen his dad for another hour, so that's 7 hours since Sunday which is 9 hours short of me seeing my mum since Summer 2010.

If my maths is right, he sees his family the same amount in just over 2 weeks as I've seen my mum in almost 8 years.

So much for seeing me mum regularly eh?

Hopefully, from now on...

I'm liking my new AP that was partly delivered yesterday!

I took the first one at 7pm yesterday to see if it sent me to sleep as well as keeping the psychosis at bay.

I was still awake at 10pm and didn't wake up until 7am this morning so it keeps me asleep for 12 hours since I took it.

It's lactose free so I didn't get an allergic reaction which was awesome.

The pill was teeny tiny so was easy peasy to swallow even for me.

I feel more awake and energetic this morning and there isn't even a hint of a psychotic episode which is fabulous!

Just phoned the pharmacy and asked for them to order in yesterday's pills and they said that was no problem, but it would need to be named on the prescription, so I phoned my GP and explained what the pharmacy had said.  She made a note of the name I was requesting and said she'd ask a doctor to update my records so hopefully it's sorted now! 

The pharmacist said that it'd take 3 days to get it from the manufacturer after they'd got the prescription, then they'll deliver it as soon as they get it, so, in theory, my next lot will take slightly longer because it'll be the first named prescription, so I'll order it 2 weeks before I run out, but after that it'll be back to getting my prescription 5 working days after requesting it from my GP. 

The pills are generic instead of brand name, so they can't complain about the cost any more, but hopefully, starting from my May prescription, I'll be having my pills within a week again!

We shall see!

Thursday, 22 March 2018

Just had a...

Just been blue-screened for the second time in my life which made me panic 'cos the first time it happened was in 2016, almost to the day, which made me lose everything.  Thankfully this laptop had been delivered literally a few days earlier and I'd moved everything between laptops when it happened but if I hadn't been able to afford this laptop I would have been in deep poo!

It seems to have been more like the Windows ME blue screens that happened several times a day though, 'cos I haven't lost anything other than the time it took to report the blue screen to Microsoft and log back in, thankfully!

Even if I *had* lost everything with this blue screen, I would only have lost the stuff that I've used and saved in the last 5 days 'cos I back everything up every Saturday as routine "just in case" paranoia is all.  Things like this make me grateful for my paranoia... it's why I run a deep virus scan of my entire laptop every Friday too!

Part of my prescription has just been delivered

When I first found out about the pharmacy being able to deliver prescriptions, I was told it took 5 working days which was awesome.

A few months later, because of my dairy allergy, I was told it'd be 7 working days for delivery because they had to order them in from the manufacturer because they were lactose free.

That was fine too, I just phoned through the order a few days sooner.

This time though, I was waiting for two weeks with no updates so Steve phoned them last week to find out what was going on.  The pharmacy had "lost the script" and were waiting for a new one from my GP so that they could contact the manufacturer but I'd definitely have them on Tuesday.

It got to 4pm on Tuesday and they still hadn't been delivered so Steve phoned the pharmacy who said they were waiting for the prescription from my surgery but that they "had the pills waiting" for me and they would try and get them out on Wednesday if they could, or definitely Thursday.

They've just been delivered.

But only 10 days worth.

The pharmacy put an IOU form on the front saying that they owe me 16 days so I hope they arrive in the next 12 days.

I'll order my next lot when I've got 14 days left instead of the 5 I was promised when I signed up to get them delivered.

Not a happy bunny.

Wednesday, 21 March 2018

Almost forgot

Steve spent another hour with his family today, so that's 7 hours since Saturday that he's had RL contact with his family.  Only 6 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time with his family in 7 days as I have with my mum since early Summer 2010 and it's only Wednesday today.

Not a happy bunny.

7 in 5 now

Just finished my seventh course in five days. Start writing fiction is entirely about grown-up fiction though, so I didn't get much benefit from it unfortunately  😑

Tuesday, 20 March 2018

6 courses in 4 days now

Done another 3 OpenLearn courses today, so I'm now at a total of 6 courses in 4 days which is pretty good going I reckon!

Updates on Steve's contact

His brother was here for 3 hours on Sunday.
His sister was here for an hour yesterday.
He saw his dad for 2 hours today.

That's 6 hours in 3 days, so he's 10 hours short of seeing his family more in a week than I've seen my mum since 2010.

No, that's not a typo.  Steve sees his family the same amount in 7 days as I've seen my mum in 7 years!!

Hardly fair, is it?

Monday, 19 March 2018

That's the third course finished

Three courses done and dusted in 4 days.

Just gotta upload my badge to my navigation page then I can go to bed!

2 in 3 days

Just finished another OpenLearn course... my second completed course in three days!  Yaaaay!

Saturday, 17 March 2018

Andrew left at 5ish, so...

Andrew was here for about 3 hours which was how long we spent with my mum when we went over between my father's funeral and when we got Mitzi.

Spent about 10 hours with her for the funeral, 3 hours for the betweeny visit and about 3 hours when we went over with Mitzi so a grand total of about 16ish hours in 2010 and nothing since.  Steve's spent part of that with his brother today so there's about 13 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time in one week with his family as I have with my mum since 2010.

The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was Steve promising that we could go and see my mum regularly... I don't call 16 hours in getting on for 8 years regular visits, do you?

Andrew's just arrived, so...

2pm on day one and I've been up here for an hour already.  Steve's already done more for Andrew, in under 5 minutes, than he does for me in an entire day... he's more Andrew's carer than mine, obviously!

PPI and Citizen Financial

Just got another letter from Citizen Financial Advisory, threatening me with court action again.

I've already paid them £875 which is over £250 more than I got from the claim (£616) so Steve's going to call them on Monday and say that I'll pay £50 a month for the next 7 months 'cos there's no way I can afford it all in one go.

I've had to reduce my payments to BC from £75 a month to £25 to be able to afford that £50 and if I get any more PPI awards the entire amount will go to Citizen as soon as it reaches my account.

I'm so fucking fed up of them.  I've had 2 PPI payments and this is the second time they've said I haven't paid when I have - 100% of the time they've done it and I'm fed up to the back teeth of it!

If you think you've been mis-sold PPI then do it yourself instead of going through a PPI company!  Especially not Citizen Financial Advisory!!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again.  Nothing more than that lol.

The next 7 days

I was told, literally 10 minutes ago, that Andrew is coming over this afternoon, so I'll be recording for the next 7 days how often and for how long Steve sees his family.

I've seen my mum for less than 24 hours since 2010 and Steve was with me each time.

I'm relegated upstairs to the bedroom when Andrew comes over and I'm stuck in the living room while Marie's here.  The only time I come into contact with Steve' family is when I open the front door for Steve and his dad waves at me from the car and when we get our hair's cut is when I see his mum.

Hardly fair, is it?

Friday, 16 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

I ordered me AP 9 days ago and I still haven't got it and I've had to take one every other day for the last week.  I've got 2 left which means that I've got enough to last me until Monday evening then that's it.

If I don't have the prescription by Monday I'm gonna go nuts and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me going totally fruitloop again.

If I go fruitloop I'll become suicidal because of the paranoia.

If I get paranoid I just won't see any reason not to take my life and I've got enough supplements to succeed this time too.

I'm not suicidal and won't be until the middle of next week, but I'll not be responsible or sensible come Wednesday.

I'm safe right now, but come Tuesday I'll have been waiting for my prescription for 2 weeks instead of the 5 days I was promised.

Thursday, 15 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again and we're having jacket tatties for lunch today... yumsk!

Wednesday, 14 March 2018

Chips for tea and no pills tonight

The pharmacy have screwed up with my prescription again... they were supposed to have been delivered yesterday but they weren't, so yet again I'm doing 1 day taking them, 1 day without.  Tonight is a without night.

Steve saw a programme about fish being caught and offered to get us chips for tea, so we're waiting for them to be delivered then I'll eat 'em and be forced to have a late night and early morning.

I really don't like missing doses, but better that than taking the full 28 days, going fruitloop while I'm waiting for the manufacturer and pharmacy to get the pills to me then have to start the cycle again... yadda yadda yadda.

I'm gonna phone the pharmacy next week and give them a 3 week window instead of the 2 weeks they've been having for the last decade or so... they promised 5 working days and everything was fine and dandy for years and I wrongly got used to it, then things started going tits up and haven't got any better *sigh*

Tuesday, 13 March 2018

Supplements taken

Haven't taken my supplements for a few days and I've really been feeling it so I've just taken them and the multi is making me feel better already... hate that I keep forgetting though!  *sigh*

Monday, 12 March 2018

So tired tonight!

Taken me AP then Steve made me a mug of coffee so I'll be going to bed now and waking up late tomorrow!


Sunday, 11 March 2018

Just want to apologise in advance, in case...

I came off my AD last month because the new recipe had lactose in it, which I'm allergic to, so I suddenly came off the Citalopram and my GP warned me that because the withdrawl was so sudden, instead of being slowly weaned off it, I might feel woozy for a while as my body readjusts.

My wooziness is coming out as sudden bouts of anger and I go from placid to full of rage then back to placid literally within seconds, so I just want to apologise in advance for any sudden bursts of anger for seemingly little or no reason.

For example, I've just had a bath and was fine until I went to get a towel, a couple of things in the pile started to slip off and my rage went from zero to 10 immediately and back to zero just as quickly.  I yelled at the top of my lungs in anger as soon as the clothes started slipping down, the hubby called through to find out what was going on and by the time he'd finished his sentence, my anger had disappeared again.

The way that Steve described my wooziness was by saying I'm like a steam train at the hands of someone with no training... I plod along fine until the coal is thrown into the firebox in just the wrong place and the safety valve thingies start blowing off steam.  Everything is about steam trains with Steve!  lol 

Apparently I'm like a cartoon character... walking along fine and dandy one minute and the next there's steam coming out of my ears!  lol

Anyway, I just want to apologise in advance for any posts I make that seem rude or angry or like I'm having a go at you... that's really not my intention at all, I just can't control my anger for a while is all... it'll get better and I do still care, I just need you to be patient with me for a while is all.

Saturday, 10 March 2018

Stop apologising

Money differences between me and Steve

After all the bills have been paid and I've paid for the groceries at about £50 a week, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month.

I asked Steve how much he had left after all his bills have been paid every month.

"Barely anything" says he.

"How much is that though?" I asked.

"About 20 quid" says he.

"That's 5 times the amount that I'm left with" says I.

Steve sighs and shakes his head in frustration.

"See why I don't want you to spend more than £50 a week on shopping?  Even if you spend £51 a week, I'm left with precisly nothing.

He's left with the same amount in one month as I am in five yet he says he struggles to pay for things and have any money left for himself.

What about me then??  I wanna see how you cope with having £4 a month to survive on instead of your current £20!

See why I buy very little for myself with the weekly groceries?  It's because you've already spent most of it on cake and crisps and drinks!

Monday's shopping is exactly £48.  I've got 3 bottles of pop on it, costing a grand total of £2.10.  The rest of it is Steve's stuff.  I'm trying to save money and Steve goes and adds more cake "because we've got more money to play with this week"... erm, no we haven't!!

If you think we've got more money to spend on the shopping, how about moving £16 a month over for the shopping?  Then and only then will we have "more money to play with" and it'll put us on a more even monthly budget too.

Doubt that'll happen though.

Steve can afford take aways and books and stuff every month that it takes literally months for me to be able to afford, assuming that none of the shopping has cost over £50 a week for the entire five months!  The only way that would happen is if I got 3 bottles of pop a week for myself and literally nothing else.

That'll never happen though.


8 years, compared to 1 week

I last saw my mum in 2010.

Three times to be exact.

Once at my dad's funeral, once when we got Mitzi and the last time was December so that we could exchange Christmas gifts.

I haven't seen her since.

Last week Steve saw his family four times and next week it'll be three.

In 8 years I've seen my mum less than Steve saw his family last week.

Hardly fair, is it?!

Friday, 9 March 2018

31 months and counting

Just had a statements from one of my two credit cards and it'll be totally paid off in 31 months!

Totally awesomesauce!

In less than 3 years I'll be totally debt free for the first time since I was 18!  I can count down the months now for the first time in over 20 years!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements.  They went down fine this morning, thankfully!

Family walkies this morning!

Just got back from Mitzi's walk... I joined them to the end of the street today!

The pup poo'd in the road right outside the house so Steve picked it up and carried on walking the pup with me following them on the way and them following me on the way back.

Thursday, 8 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again.

That's all  😉

Wednesday, 7 March 2018

How's your maths?

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again!

If you're looking for an amazing online company to get supplements from, I definitely recommend Simply Supplements and you can get a discount off your first order if you use my name in the referrer thingy too... I've been buying off them for years and wouldn't go anywhere else now!

Tuesday, 6 March 2018

O2 yet again

O2 have been leading me a merry dance since the middle of May 2017.

I've cancelled the contract I never wanted 5 times so far, so why is my credit score still showing a default?

Why are they still saying I owe money on a contract I cancelled within 24 hours?

I've just spoken to someone at O2 yet again and she said she's going to email the credit reference agency, equifax and the O2 accounts bods to say that because I cancelled within the cooling off period, the defaults are wrong and she's refunded the missed payment that caused the default.

This evening is the fifth time I've contacted them in less than a year and each of those 5 times I've been told that the contract is cancelled and I don't owe them anything.

Apparently it can take 60 days to show up, so I'm giving them until the first week of May to get it sorted, when it'll be a year of when I cancelled the contract and if it's still not sorted by then, I'll want to speak to a manager at O2... my credit rating was only poor before this default and because of O2 it's back to being very poor now, so I'm not a happy bunny.

They've got 60 days from today to sort it out then I'll take it as high as it needs to go and move my number over to 3 and strongly discourage anyone and everyone from using O2.

They were an amazing company until a year ago... I couldn't recommend them highly enough - not any more though!

Supplements taken again

I'm sure you're all getting bored of these "supplements taken" posts, but I need to make them so that I know if I've taken them or not!

Monday, 5 March 2018

The navigation is more organised now, thankfully

Been working on my homepage for the last 8ish hours.

The navigation is more organised now and I've given up on the slidey outy navigation for now... caused too many problems this morning, so I'll just stick with what I know works for my personal site.

Means that I can concentrate on other things now that the navigation is sorted on both sites!

See what I mean?

We had a take-away last week which would've cost £15-£20 and he's just spent another £10 on two boxes of pens from Amazon, so that's £25-£30 in less than a week that Steve can afford but it's 7 months before I can afford that, yet he still says he hasn't got enough to live on.

He's looking at post-it notes too now!

If he can afford pens, post-it notes and take-aways in less than a week then he can afford to pay for the electricity I reckon!

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

The affect isn't as noticeable as yesterday yet, but it'll happen I'm sure... I just need to do it every day to get the most benefit!

3 years and counting

In 2.5 years I'll be free of another credit card debt and in 3 years I'll be totally debt free!  Yay!

Just gotta keep up the payments to CO and BC for those 3 years then I can work on improving my credit score!

Right now, after all my bills and the shopping have come out, I'm left with £4 a month.  We spent £50 on this week's shopping and £45 of it is Steve's stuff... literally the only things of mine on the entire order are 7 bottles of pop, the rest is for Steve.

I'm paying for the electricity too at £50 a month that I'm moving over to Steve, yet he can afford take-aways and things we don't need... I survive on £4 a month so why can Steve afford more than that?  He buys stuff from Amazon too... I haven't bought anything from Amazon since Christmas when I had to get gifts for both families and Steve didn't put a penny towards it.

Not this year though.  As of next week, Steve can spend exactly half the weekly grocery budget on food for him (£25) and half the electricity payment too... that'll save me £125 a month that I can put aside for gifts for my mum, C, H and D.

I'm fed up of getting £460 a month and being left with £4 yet Steve gets more than that and he can still afford take-aways!

Hardly fair, is it!

Sunday, 4 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and the multi is kicking in nice and quickly... haven't taken them for a few days 'cos I didn't remember but the effect is really quick when that happens!

Wanna try and remember to take them every morning but the brain damage has really affected my memory unfortunately  😟

Saturday, 3 March 2018

Creative afternoon today!

Went head-to-head with me Stories site this morning but eventually managed to get my blog embedded into the site, then I put this blog on my domain and did a bit of house-keeping with all the communities I'm no longer with and sorted out my webrings.

I've taken me AP already, so just waiting for it to kick in then I'll head to bed, feeling really proud of myself.

Friday, 2 March 2018

Well that were simple enough, even for me!

Since upgrading to Windows 10, I've been getting an error whenever I've tried to email someone from a link on a site... copying and pasteing the email address worked, but every time I tried to click the email link on a webpage, I got an error message.

Not any more though!

I just had to find, copy and paste a couple of dll's from one folder to 3 others, et voila!  Sorted!  I can now send emails straight from websites instead of going 'round the houses!

Yaay!  😀

Thursday, 1 March 2018

The little voices take on huge companies

In the 2 full months of 2018, Joe Public and the little voices have taken on 3 huge companies and won.

In January and February, thousands of little voices took on Google and Apple and got them to remove an anonymous pro-bullying app from their stores.

In February we took on PG Tips about removing plastic from their teabags so that they could be used then composted.  They've agreed to remove the plastic.

In 2 months, the consumers have spoken to 3 huge companies and made requests of them... and won!

I emailed my MP about privatising our NHS too and he backed himself into a corner... the email he sent me was talking about his personal life and what he'd achieved as a person as well as telling me how many emails he replies to a year without even mentioning the NHS and without any prompting from me.  I just hope he takes his constituents concerns into Parliment and fights for every one of us... that's his job after all!

Apparently Sainsbury's have our custom for another 3 months.

Steve's just said that he's happy to stay with Sainsbury's for our weekly groceries, so I'll let the delivery thing auto renew at the end of March for another 3 months... I like that you have the option of 3, 6 or 12 months delivery saver too, instead of being forced into a 6 month committment like you are with Tesco.

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements and other than the Calcium being quite hard to crunch up, they all went down fine again.

Sainsbury's delivery pass

Had an email from Sainsbury's overnight to say that the delivery pass will run out on 29th March.

I said that to Steve, then added "wanna renew the delivery pass with Sainsburys or do you wanna go back to Tesco?"

His reply, and I quote, was "see how they do throughout March and decide later, but they're doing OK right now aren't they so we can stay with them if you like?"

Never thought Steve would agree to that... he's been a Tesco boy the entire time I've known him, so Sainsbury's must have impressed him over the last couple of months!

I've always been a Sainsbury's gal because I've had a Nectar card for decades, but I've got a Tesco loyalty card now too so I'm genuinely not bothered either way!  I like that you pay in advance with Sainsbury's then you don't need to worry about it, but you pay monthly at Tesco but that's all!

Wednesday, 28 February 2018

Just taken me supplements again

All went down nice and easily today, which was a relief!

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again... the calcium took a bit of effort to crunch up, but other than that they all went down fine and dandy.

Monday, 26 February 2018

This'll piss Americans off! lol

I live in Gloucester and Steve did a bit of research this morning after I asked him how many people live in Gloucester for a survey I was filling in.

Apparently Gloucester has been around since 97AD!!  That means that just the city I live in is older than most of America! lol

Only Native Americans even start to approach the oldness of where I live and even then it's a close-run thing!


There's a postbox that Steve walks the pup to every morning and he's just told me that it's a Victorian one 'cos it's got VR embossed on it so it's quite a decent age!

Supplements taken

All 3 of 'em went down without a single problem this morning!


👍     😁

Sunday, 25 February 2018

Supplements taken

Remembered to take them this morning!  lol

Steve's already achieved a lot this morning!

He's taken the pup out for her walk, cleared her poo up that she did on the walk, cleared up and binned her poo from the yard,  put all our rubbish into the bag ready for it to be emptied tomorrow, took the recycling out then made us both a mug of coffee!

I took the pup's lead off, folded it up and took it into the kitchen then fed her.  Came back in here to get the mugs and took them out to Steve after I'd backed up my hard drive.

My laptop has been on non-stop for 3 days now, because I forgot to set the virus scan going on Friday!

Saturday, 24 February 2018


Jeremy Hunt, MP, wants to slip something through Parliament in April that will sell off the NHS to the highest bidder and it'll become a private company that we have to pay for.

I don't know about you, but there's no way I can afford to fork out hundreds a month just to get my prescription!  I don't want to have to decide between eating or taking a prescription that I need, but that's what could happen!

After all my bills, the electricity and groceries have come out, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month!!  I don't know where they're expecting me to find an extra £750 a month just for a single prescription, then another £1000 to see my GP, £500 for a blood test and even more for smears and jabs and things like that!

Our NHS isn't perfect, but it's free at the point of service and there are millions of people who use it to help to keep them healthy every day.

In all seriousness, if the Accountable Care thingy goes through in April, I'll have to stop taking my prescription and I'd prolly jump under the nearest bus within a month 'cos I just couldn't cope!

For those that *could* cope and survive without their prescription, they may end up homeless just so that they could pay for the insurance.  We've already got way too many homeless people on the street who can't afford to eat but Mr Hunt doesn't seem to care about that!

Come on, Mr Hunt... take a pay cut and put the money into the NHS!  Same with all the MPs and especially our PM... take a 10% pay cut and use the money that suddenly appears to invest in our NHS.

You earn more in a week than I do in an entire year!  Be human and think about the whole country instead of lining your pockets with money that could be better used elsewhere!

Friday, 23 February 2018

Supplements taken

This time it was the multi I had difficulty swallowing instead of the iron!

Didn't gag, like I do with the iron, but it took two mouthfuls of squash to get it down!

Thursday, 22 February 2018

This morning

Steve took the pup out for her walk just after I came downstairs and left me a note which our clever little pup had signed.

I'm cream crackered now though, so I'm heading to bed now.

Nite nite!

Wednesday, 21 February 2018

Joint walkies this morning

I took the pup for the first part of her walk and Steve walked with us in case she poo'd then he took over the second part of her walk, she poo'd, Steve picked it up and we all came home!

Tuesday, 20 February 2018

Just checked me bank balance

After a quick bit of maffs, I'll have £19 left in me account as long as Monday's shopping doesn't come to any more than £50 I'll be able to afford the membership to the Dogs Trust on the 15th March and I'll be paid again on Monday as well, so as long as I don't spend anything I'll be able to afford Melanie's SCBWI fee of about £60...

Hold on, let's start again.

I've got £19 left in my account after all my bills have come out.

I've got £50 for Monday's shopping but I'll be paid on Monday, so the shopping will come out of Monday's pay day, so I've got £69 left, yeah?
I bought something on Amazon for £30 so add that to the £69 makes £99 spare in March, right?

Take off Melanie's SCBWI subscription of £60 leaves me with £39 yeah?

Take off the membership to the Dog's Trust at £25 leaves me with £14 in March, yeah?

July and August are going to be expensive months 'cos I've got £87 coming out in July for Patrick's insurance then £60 in August for *my* membership to SCBWI, but as long as I keep the money in the bank and don't spend it on things I don't need as well as using the money in B as a back-up if I need it, things will be OK I reckon.

It'll be a really tight few months, but as long as I'm a tight-wad with me money and we don't spend any more than £50 a week on shopping, it's just about do-able I reckon.