Saturday, 17 March 2018

Andrew left at 5ish, so...

Andrew was here for about 3 hours which was how long we spent with my mum when we went over between my father's funeral and when we got Mitzi.

Spent about 10 hours with her for the funeral, 3 hours for the betweeny visit and about 3 hours when we went over with Mitzi so a grand total of about 16ish hours in 2010 and nothing since.  Steve's spent part of that with his brother today so there's about 13 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time in one week with his family as I have with my mum since 2010.

The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was Steve promising that we could go and see my mum regularly... I don't call 16 hours in getting on for 8 years regular visits, do you?

Andrew's just arrived, so...

2pm on day one and I've been up here for an hour already.  Steve's already done more for Andrew, in under 5 minutes, than he does for me in an entire day... he's more Andrew's carer than mine, obviously!

PPI and Citizen Financial

Just got another letter from Citizen Financial Advisory, threatening me with court action again.

I've already paid them £875 which is over £250 more than I got from the claim (£616) so Steve's going to call them on Monday and say that I'll pay £50 a month for the next 7 months 'cos there's no way I can afford it all in one go.

I've had to reduce my payments to BC from £75 a month to £25 to be able to afford that £50 and if I get any more PPI awards the entire amount will go to Citizen as soon as it reaches my account.

I'm so fucking fed up of them.  I've had 2 PPI payments and this is the second time they've said I haven't paid when I have - 100% of the time they've done it and I'm fed up to the back teeth of it!

If you think you've been mis-sold PPI then do it yourself instead of going through a PPI company!  Especially not Citizen Financial Advisory!!

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again.  Nothing more than that lol.

The next 7 days

I was told, literally 10 minutes ago, that Andrew is coming over this afternoon, so I'll be recording for the next 7 days how often and for how long Steve sees his family.

I've seen my mum for less than 24 hours since 2010 and Steve was with me each time.

I'm relegated upstairs to the bedroom when Andrew comes over and I'm stuck in the living room while Marie's here.  The only time I come into contact with Steve' family is when I open the front door for Steve and his dad waves at me from the car and when we get our hair's cut is when I see his mum.

Hardly fair, is it?

Friday, 16 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me 3 supplements again.

I ordered me AP 9 days ago and I still haven't got it and I've had to take one every other day for the last week.  I've got 2 left which means that I've got enough to last me until Monday evening then that's it.

If I don't have the prescription by Monday I'm gonna go nuts and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me going totally fruitloop again.

If I go fruitloop I'll become suicidal because of the paranoia.

If I get paranoid I just won't see any reason not to take my life and I've got enough supplements to succeed this time too.

I'm not suicidal and won't be until the middle of next week, but I'll not be responsible or sensible come Wednesday.

I'm safe right now, but come Tuesday I'll have been waiting for my prescription for 2 weeks instead of the 5 days I was promised.

Thursday, 15 March 2018

Supplements taken

Just taken me supplements again and we're having jacket tatties for lunch today... yumsk!

Wednesday, 14 March 2018

Chips for tea and no pills tonight

The pharmacy have screwed up with my prescription again... they were supposed to have been delivered yesterday but they weren't, so yet again I'm doing 1 day taking them, 1 day without.  Tonight is a without night.

Steve saw a programme about fish being caught and offered to get us chips for tea, so we're waiting for them to be delivered then I'll eat 'em and be forced to have a late night and early morning.

I really don't like missing doses, but better that than taking the full 28 days, going fruitloop while I'm waiting for the manufacturer and pharmacy to get the pills to me then have to start the cycle again... yadda yadda yadda.

I'm gonna phone the pharmacy next week and give them a 3 week window instead of the 2 weeks they've been having for the last decade or so... they promised 5 working days and everything was fine and dandy for years and I wrongly got used to it, then things started going tits up and haven't got any better *sigh*

Tuesday, 13 March 2018

Supplements taken

Haven't taken my supplements for a few days and I've really been feeling it so I've just taken them and the multi is making me feel better already... hate that I keep forgetting though!  *sigh*

Monday, 12 March 2018

So tired tonight!

Taken me AP then Steve made me a mug of coffee so I'll be going to bed now and waking up late tomorrow!